掉了 ?

Today is 29sept and it is ah leong b'day !! Happie 21st ah leong, May all ur wishes come true and take care :)

I'm soo lookin forward to tis sat as i'm gg to night safari halloween night wif de zoo peeps :) It gonna be fun fun but too bad julia n vincent could nt join us.. Nvm we shall go again coz it for the whole mth of OCT :) Recently busy wif my invitation card thingy, alreadi bought all de materials needed and nw it designing time.. Gonna start doin tml.. And i'm stil waitin for my fever gd student tee, hopefully there wil be restock Pls pls pls :)

黑色笑靥掉了 雪白眼泪掉了 该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了 瞳孔没有颜色 故事情节掉了　主角对白掉了 该属于剧中的对角戏也掉了。。 回忆是最可怕的敌人，我永远都没办法胜过它。。

That all for today.. Gd night to u n her then :)

想念不能承认　偷偷擦去泪痕

若無其事 ?

我可否若無其事的走向人群，我能否若無其事的正常? 我無法若無其事，無法。。太多的淚水 寫滿了悲傷和愚昧。。

晚安了，拜拜。。 就这样了

我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己

22/9/09

Tired, tired, tired is all i can sae after 4 days straight of work.. And i'm workin on a long weekends ! But luckly everything stil can manage if nt u can see me takin MC le hahaha.. Tml to sat wil be OFF :) Shiok ah hahaha.. Sat wil be gg shoppin wif mason n julia in de afternoon dan night time wil be dinner wif mason n de rest of zoo peeps :)

當我替這世界找完藉口，結果卻仍舊令人沮喪 我就不想再费任何的力气了。。虽然我面無表情，對很多事情都已經無法再激動看待，但此時我仍失望透頂。。抱緊怕愛會掙扎 放開又怕愛會心慌 那我该怎么做呢？The worse thing is caring about someone, wondering how she is and what she is up to when the truth is she've stopped wondering about you a long time ago... 原来她已不在意所有的所有了。。

已累了..

Byeee that all.. Gd night to u n her and haf a gd rest everyone :) 晚安吧!

就算不能够再靠近同样的天空下总会有你 ...

19/09/09

Today was a day out wif Ju and Oon for picnic at Marina Barrage !! The weather was nt soo gd but we stil manage to picnic and took quite alot of fotos, waitin for Ju to upload as she gt lots of pic to upload nw haaa.. I love gg out wif them as it's soo fun and we can chat abt lots of thing as well.. I go off 1st as nid to attend trainin in de evening :( Sorry abt dat Ju & Oon, sorry that i gt to leave early.. Next time, i'll leave my whole day for u all k hee :D

Yest after work receive a sms from her, soo suprising uh .. I was kinda suprise too when i saw de sms.. She told me dat if hse come to my party, it'll be weird coz she dunnoe anyone there.. I was like ermmm dere's afew ppl dat i invite dat she noe as well.. She replied: But i nt close wif them.. I told her if she's cumin, i will acc her throughout the party n she'll nt be alone :) Yest night b4 i was gg to sleep, i was thinking abt the whole thing.. I was wondering am i like forcin her to come or wad ? I feel like smsin her n tell her if u realli scared dat u feel weird, it okay for me if u dun make it :) In de end i nv sms her tis, coz i noe i wil regret coz i realli hope n want her to come but i dun wanna force her or ... Today told ju & oon abt dat, Ju sae it kind of obivious dat she dun wanna come or could not come le.. Ju told me to sms her dat if she is realli cumin she can bring along a gal-fren to acc her :) I guess i wil tell her dat too..

我還沒忘掉的東西，還沒理由忘記，而殘留的一切不管現在以後都會很安靜。。習慣性的把很多心情都像裝袋一樣的隱藏起來，什么都不想让别人知道或发现。。祝我開心，但我要你更開心 可以吗？So many words for the broken heart, It's hard to see in a crimson love and it's so hard to breathe ...

只想在自己的世界里。。

Byee that all for 2day.. Tml is work again and it will be a 4 days straight work .. Gd night to u n her :) 祝妳開心。妳一定要好嗎 ?

这夜晚 让暗恋更有画面感.. 与你去会过的地方 都舍不得删 ..

United Day !

Yest was a great day !! Ah Ju & ah oon came n fetch me from work n they also come zoo n ns to act as a tourist hahahaha.. At 1st they lie to me sayin dat ah oon cannot make it, but i knew smth is nt right n bth of them seems hiding smth from me so i did nt realli believe it when ah ju sms me n told me dat .. We went to bongo for dinner :) Slack n chat over dere and went Ben & jerry to slack n chat again n of coz takin foto hahaa..

Our Bongo Meal :)

United !

Enjoyin Ice-cream

Bth of them seems to like my Cap alot uh haaa :p

Ah oon, Ah Ju, Ah Dang

Friday, we will be meetin again !! Picnic Picnic Picnic Time :) 3 of us are soo excited abt dat and each of us gonna prepare food.. And de 2 of them told me we gonna play heart-attack on fri when i ask them wad we gonna do that day other dan eatin hahaha...

Alreadi ask her abt my b'day party, and she sae she wil let me noe again as she nid to check her sch time-table.. I realli hope that she could make it but i'm not gg to pin too much hope or think too much abt dat, yest i was kind of bored n i even go n ask de dunnoe wad indian Fortune Teller Genius at FB abt dat and the ans is obivious ! I was like wad soo obivious uh, but nvm la hahaha..

要是可以，我希望我可以對自己的心情越來越沈默，只有好的快樂的一面讓人看到，負的糟糕的都塞往裡頭。。 愛人的能力 因為離開而成長 還是關上心防 ？ 本来以為應該 接受全部的全部 才是愛的方法 當時誰能懂得放 那是多痛的感想。。我真的想真的想 將破碎的心釋放 。。

That shld be all for 2day, will blog again maybe in a few days time.. Nw blogger is workin well again, well done blogger hahaha :D Tml is work again, byee n gd night to u n her :) 不知道她今晚是否会上线 ？好吧，也够了 就这样吧！ 晚安咯。。

到底爱怎么了? 我并不知道 我只是一直习惯为爱付出

13/09/09

I think bloggers onli work well at certain timing.. So next time i onli can blog at certain timing lo.. Anyway tis few days are okay, workin and training.. Soon i wil be meetin wif Julin & Jiemin, i had nt been meetin them for soo long coz i bery bo heng hahaha..

Tis few days, i had been starin at my lappy again.. Hopin and tryin my luck whether wil she online, even she online i also nv chat wif her.. I always sound so silly whenever i chat wif her and my stupidness will all show up.. 我正在練習痲痹，習慣痛覺，努力讓舊的感覺積灰塵。。東西會痛的就是會痛，該難過的還是要難過完。。该忘记的还是要尽力的让自己试着忘记，就算办不到也要装做我已忘记了。。

My next target !!

FCUK watch

I'll get tis 熱血好學生Tee !

仔仔 :)

I nid my sleep soon as i'm dead tired nw.. Gonna slp late tml, enjoy my slp to de max hahaha.. That shld be all ! Byee n gd night to you n her .. 晚安吧!

轻轻放 我就是卸不下对你的喜欢 原来爱会慢慢增加重量

Hais (edited wif colors)

Hais Hais Hais :( I gt alot of thing to post here but Blogger dun allow me too.. I can't post pic, i can't edit my colors for my post.. By nw u all shld noe dat i always edit my colors for my post for different section .. But as i gt too many thing to sae and type so i stil choose to make tis post n edit it when bloggers realli work well :)

Maybe alot of ppl is wonderin what is my FB status talkin abt the quiting or stay thingy ? It is not my work at zoo nor her.. It's smth dat i had been doin it for a long time and no one will expect me to quit it ? The ans is: Netball !! Suprising right ? The reason i had dat thinkin or dat decision is because I had nt realli improve on my skills for netball and i feel soo tired alreadi and my right ankle is stil injuired .. BUT i had decide to stay, not had de thinkin to quit anymore, Play well & focus like wad i did 2day for the friendly game n coach sae that i did play well dan the last game.. So WORK HARD n TRAIN HARD :)

For the past few days, she's online but she put away.. I know she is nt away as she is busy doing her stuff.. Seein her online is more dan enough :) Did click on her but stil decide nt to type anything.. Yest saw her latest Msn DP, it's an hamster sleeping.. Seein dat dp make me think back last time, thinkin dat she used to told me dat she like hamster and she wanted to have 1.. She even told me hw she wanna named the hamster, the name of them and the reason why they are named that way.. Thinkin back that i find all ways to see whether which of my fren had hamster and wanted to gif away, and whenever i entered a Pet shop i'll head to the hamster section to take alook at them.. That time my fren n cousin are always wonderin hw cum i'll look at hamster coz i always love dog and i'll always head to the dog section whenever i entered the pet shop.. Even had de thinkin to buy her de hamster and everything she needed to keep them but in de end i nv as she sae she is stil not ready for it as she is too busy wif things.. After soo long, i'll stil had de mindset to buy her 1 but in de end i nv as i feel that i shld buy smth that wil be useful for her and she will used it frequently .. 今晚她没有上线，我也该去睡了。。

我好想告诉她我好想她，但我不能。。因为我一定会后悔如果我真的说。。That shld be .. Gd night to u n her :)

有一些话打好了却不敢传 怕收到信息的你在为难

Luckly ?

Recently i did nt get to blog nicely as i'm busy & Bo Heng like wad ah JU sae !! For de past 2 days i had been wakin up at 5 plus in de mornin, and it damn freakin tiring for me... Last fri after work, went down to SRC for friendly match and on sat i nid to wake up at 5 plus for de carnival, 2day i woke up at 5 plus for work, tml wake up 5 plus again for round 2 carnival, tue wake up 5 plus AGAIN for work.. HELL for me man, i look super tired n shag nw seriously.. NT ENOUGH SLEEEP LA !!!

Today i'm quite luckly haaa coz something nice happen.. It might not be some nice thing to others but to me it gd enough coz i dun always get a chance to have nice thing happening to me :) Today was chattin wif Shi Hui at work.. I was complainin dat i'm tired all tis n we started like tis conversation.. N i happen to realise shi hui n me will keep ourself busy n really occupied to prevent ourself from thinking as we can think abt lots of thing....

I shall upload some photo on last tue RAINY zoo trip hahaha... ENJOY

仔仔

Anyway i shld be sleeping early today, but i doubt soo as i'll be starin at my lappy for quite sometime i guess.. Tml gonna be a Zzzz journey to sch :) Byee and Gd night to u n her.. Sweet Dreams :)

今晚渴望再见你 虽然只是在梦里

Lazy

I do have lots of thing to blog here but i'm way too tired alreadi.. I shall blog when i'm abit more free and if blogger works :)

Dang & Joshua :)

That is all for today, i nid my sleep nw.. Super tired nw n tml gt to work n after work is friendly games.. GOSH !! 晚安吧，希望她今晚会睡好 :)

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