24/8/10

寂寞寂寞就好

還是原來那個我 不過撂掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會換這張臉應對笑容
不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯 早點認錯 早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉 我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你又改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼 什麼都沒有 早點看破 才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的 我總會把你戒掉

28/7/10

Days are gettin lesser each days.. I left wif 2 more days at work.. Bth weekends off, so i will enjoy my off day from sat all de way till 6th aug.. Yest went down-hill wif lulu and kaze for steamboat dinner.. Good dinner and great chat ! I wan more gatherin wif OBT peepo like 小妞，小琪，小眼，kai ning, LuLu,小柚 and more to list.. Yest manage to gif 小眼 a belated b'day surprise :)) Yest did a presentation for OBT staff and i did kind of hold back the thing i wanna sae, as i noe once i sae all out, i wil be emotional and that it...

Recently follow quite a few days of program for 静修女中, it's a gal sch.. Before i follow the program, some of my colleagues told me quite alot of them are abit bimbo ! Some of them are abit bimbo and there are some that are quite pretty n sweet too hahaha.. And when they noe or hear from someone that i'm actually not Taiwanese and i'm from Singapore, all of them just like come to me and: Ah dang 你是新加坡人啊？And then they will continue to ask n ask.. Today 1 of them even ask me: Do singapore haf handsome guys ? Hahaha.. Today when we are doing 1 activities like giving everyone a hi 5 or say thank to each other, lots of them are like Ah dang ah dang and they hi 5 till damn high.. I was like abit shocked coz they soo high.. When they are about to leave, for those that will in my group came n ask me ah dang可以跟你拍照吗？I'm like:可以阿.. Some of them ask for my msn n FB and 1 even ask me for my phone no ? I'm like phone no ?? In de end, i gif msn n my FB name coz phone no, abit weird ahh for me haa.. B4 they leave, 1 gal came n ask me ah dang：可以拍你吗？ I'm like: 拍我？ And she sae ya, can i haf ur individual pic? I'm like ohh okay can.. Feel kind of weird when she ask me that haaa.. And when they leave usually all of us will stand near the door n sae bye to them and i did that too, for today all of them came to me and like ah dang ah dang bye bye and all gif me hi 5 or hi 10 again ! Out of sudden i feel like i'm like star hahaha.. All of them are very 热情 and i do enjoy the lesson today and last week alot :) Tml wil be my last day of followin program, may it be a great wan :))

Yest i guess i do smth silly again when i went out wif her.. Yest when we will crossing the road, she drop something on the road and it roll into the middle of the road, and when i saw that i straight away went out and pick up the stuff for her and I did not even think twice whether is there any car or wad ? When she saw me went out to pick her stuff, she shouted ah dang(AD) 小心车！And when i pass her the stuff, she was like 你要小心啦，有车！I'm like 没关系 :) Yest I bought 1 small bottle and she asked me: why u buy this bottle or container? I'm like ohhh i intend to put stuff.. And i bought it coz i wanna put stuff and gif it to her b4 i leave.. She also ask me: so did u use ur material to make card that u bought that time ? I'm like ohhh stil doing and actually i alreadi make hers le.. And she sae next yr she wil come sg :)

Days r super near but stil pray for me that everything will go smoothly for the few days i left here :))

哭了又哭，想了又想 看了又看 聽了又聽 說了又說, 最後還是輸給了自己..

15/7/10

Times flies again, nw it is alreadi 15th of july.. Currently i onli left like 16 more days to end of july as i will stop workin by end of july and de rest will be my off day.. The days are like near for me to head back to sg but I have a confuse feeling.. The feeling is soo weird, basically it's just confuse !

Yest went to a night-market but i dunnoe where is it hahaha.. Coz it is zhao hui dat bring me,Lulu and 2 of the america interns.. I bought a cap at the night market too and i like it & LOVE it hahahaha..

Yest night was a gd night for me too.. Manage to chat wif her and get to noe stuff like wad is the 1st impression that i give her n more.. She told me that the 1st time she saw me at de hostel in the room, she felt that i was unfriendly & cool and i give ppl de feelin that dun come and disturb me.. N she sae actually she intend or thinking to come like sae hi or chat wif me but i was like playin wif my NDS n i'm like cool & unfriendly again ! When she told me yest i'm like hahaha serious ah ? Dan she sae yesh, u're like soo unfriendly n cool cool ! I told her, tis is nt the 1st time ppl sae dat.. Dan the 2nd time when we met at de kayakin events, she felt diff as i volunteer to kayak wif her when i noe dat no one like wan to kayak wif her and she sae i was more friendly and nt soo cool anymore.. And till then de whole impression just change hahaha.. And she sae at the kayakin events, i was the 2nd person that make her feel warm or warm-hearted :)

After the nightmarket, we went back to office to get our stuff.. And bth of us walk back to hostel together, and bth of us chat again.. I was glad dat we kind of chat abt lots of stuff, and the feeling is gd.. Told alicia regardin some other stuff too.. B4 i leave i will get her some stuff and i also get some stuff to make like small cards too :)

Tml onwards to sun, i wil not be able to online as i will be helpin out in an 3days 2 night camp ! Maybe sun i might online, if not then have to wait till mon alreadi.. I guess that shld be all for today.. Stil pray for me that everything wil go smoothly :) Byee peepo and wil try to blog more :)

心臟是一座有兩間臥室的房子。一間住著痛苦，另一間住著歡樂。人不能笑得太響，否則笑聲會吵醒隔壁房間的痛苦..

4/7/10

It already July ! So it means i onli left wif 1 months..Very soon i wil be back hm, back to where i belong ever since i was born hahaha.. I had been doin well over here, thing had been doing quite well for me.. Get to noe alot of gd frens and great colleagues like: LuLu, 小眼，Kai Ning, 小妞，小琪 and more.. No matter whether is it in office,during program or after work, it is always so nice..

I noe dat when i leave, for sure I will miss them all alot but there is 1 particular person that i will realli miss her.. I guess even if i'm back at sg i will stil miss her for certain period of time.. Even though bth of us just get to noe each other for 2 weeks but bth of us get along well like as if we noe each other for mths.. Hmm, i guess when back to sg, i need time to adjust back everything, maybe including her too.. I'm nt sure will i keep visiting taiwan becoz of her or will i work n work just to save more $ in order to go taiwan to visit her n all.. I dunnoe and i haf no ideas of it, thing are just hard to predict but i noe that i still do wanna keep in contact wif her n of coz those OBT staff like 小眼，Kai Ning, 小妞，小琪..

3 of us trying to pose or advertise for our food & Drinks !

LuLu wif all those cream all over her face n credit to me :p

Smile :)

Well, i guess it shld be all for today.. Wil try to blog and update more soon :) Stil pray for me dat everything wil be smoothly :) Byee peepo !

其实很简单, 其实很自然

29/6/10

Just 1 more days n it wil be end of june and start of july and I left wif ard 37 days at taiwan.. I been lookin forward for the days to come as i realli miss sg alot.. Miss my fren, my family and everything :) I noe i wil be as busy like last time when i head back sg, and my life wil be de same like juz netball, sch n work and of coz hang out wif all my dear fren..

Yest whole day in office, and 2 meetin to attend.. Office is fun as i keep disturb n play wif xiao qi n xiao niu.. Bth of them juz joker n damn funny, if office without them wil be boring coz no one for me to disturb hahahaha.. And all of us plan 1 day to go out together to eat n haf fun :)

Recently get to noe someone, and kind of told bro abt it.. I dunnoe hw to sae de feelin towards her, I wil nt sae i like her but i would like or hope to noe more abt her n all.. The way bth of us get to noe each other it kind of funny i guess esp the 1st time we met each other n i dun rem it at all hahahaha.. Some of my fren alreadi noe like hw i get to noe her n all le but i dun wish to type it here .. Yest went out wif OBT staff for Ktvin session and it great ! She went as well and bth of us went together in a same car.. We also chat abt stuff and bth of us gt a bet.. Next yr wil be de deadline of the bet hahahaha.. N wil ask my mum to help me to get smth from sg dan i pass it to her :)

Currently right nw, i wil nt do anything.. Juz be fren, it good that i had a overseas fren :) I just left wif ard 37 days in taiwan and i guess it would be hard for me if i realli fall for her as i wil nt have much time to like spend wif her or ask her out, and i guess I wil be more emo when i head back to sg if i realli go all de way out for her, so rather be fren ba . & next time when i go taiwan, can look for her and keep in contact :) It would be better tis way !


也许你不是我的 爱你却又该割舍 但它也可能是我们的缘分

21/6/10

Time realli pass very fast and nw de dates is alreadi 21st june and it means i left wif less dan 50 days and i will be gg back to sg.. Juz finish europe sch camp on fri and i went to extend my visa on fri morning, afternoon head to Long men to help out an kayakin event held by OBT.. On fri night get to slp at ard 11 plus and i gt to wake up at 5.30am the followin day.. I am soo tired for the past few days, lack of slp n tired ! On 16 and 17th i onli get to slp ard ard 12 plus or 1 plus n followin day nid to wake up early again.. Yest was my off day so i slp till 10 plus but i guess stil nt enough coz i'm stil tired nw hahahaha..

More program for me to attend n busy days for me.. Nw in mind i gt alot of stuff to buy, like all those shirts, shoes n cap n all.. Chat wif meishi yest, and surprisingly coach stil rem me and ask abt me like when am i cumin back n all.. N RP nball team r gg for Malaysia for some competition on 2nd aug and coach wanna put me in the name list if i'm back, another surprise again ! I ask meishi, nw the team nt enough player ah, hw cum wanna put me in the name-list and meishi told me it SECRET ! haaaa.. But i guess, i will still go back for trainin n all when i'm back durin aug .. So i wil stil be as busy like last time, nt much changes hahaha..

Still count down for me peepo, even though day r near but still count down n pray for me that everything will be smoothly :) Miss ya peepo :)

可不可以 买你的不快乐 只是想陪你吃饭 看你笑笑 听你最近 好不好

7/6/10

Currently nw at Long Tan office.. Back here for almost a week alreadi, everything here stil de same.. Work is okay, helping out programs, packing stuff and doin some office job haaa.. 16 to 18 i wil be away for 3 days camp, it will be a Europe sch camp... I guess i can speak english again hahaha.. Miss speaking english at some point of time haa.. Tml wil help out an program as well, hope weather will be gd n everything wil be smooth as well...

More work n programs for me to do and follow, it means i wil be more busy n time wil pass faster ! hahaha.. That de main thing that i like the most and i guess all my fren like it too.. Soo many stuff is waitin for me durin aug, can't wait to go back sg :)

Feel glad n happie that stil manage to FB her and she stil reply n all.. Currently i also dunnoe wad i wil do or wad but juz hope that currently nw thing stil can maintain like wad it is nw.. :)

That shld be all for nw, wil try to blog more if possible :) Stil pray and countdown for me :)

我没有任何防备　没方向到处地追