爱情 ?

若不是因为爱着你 怎么会夜深还没睡意
每个念头都关於你我想你想你好想你

若不是因为爱着你 怎会有不安的情绪
每个莫名的日子里我想你想你好想你

爱是折磨人的东西却又舍不得这样放弃
不停揣测你的心里可有我姓名

爱是我唯一的秘密让人心碎却又着迷
无论是用什么言语只会(只会)思念你

若不是因为爱着你 怎会不经意就叹息
有种不完整的心情爱你爱你(爱着你)

3/9/10

I dunnoe wad's wrong with me.. Out of sudden, i feel soo empty.. My heart seems so empty.. I dun like tis feeling.. I have no mood to do anything and i just wan to talk to someone right now, or i just need some accompany.. I start to miss her already, i need time again to be back to normal.. I know she had reach hm alreadi, and i also hope she could online soon..

走不過的就停擺在那裏，逃不過的又不認命只想輸給自己卻贏不了自己。當你看著眼前的無底洞許久只會越感好奇隨時都會往下墜，而你又怪誰? 我們一直在人生中尋找太多答案，而當我們要到了這些所謂的答案，是妳想聽見的看見的嗎? 還是結局是哭喪著臉笑自己這些年來這麼愚蠢可悲的盲目追求那些自找麻煩的枷鎖，卻是早已是分裂成灰的結。

怕過於轟烈嗎?還是過度沉靜?

30/8/10

Days are getting realli lesser n lesser each days.. She'll be headin back to tw in 5 days time.. At 1st was 2 days in sg but nw it extend to another 8 days more.. I do have more time to spend wif her and bring her ard n i'm even more glad that my dad sae he want to treat her n cash for dinner.. Coz it create another chance for me to be wif her..

There is good and bad when she stay longer in sg.. Good thing is I'll be able to spend more time wif her, bad thing is when she leave sg it'll be hard for me as those moments spend are too much.. Her flight is on fri morning 7am and i guess she will be at the airport at 5am, mostly i will be sending her and i guess i will be stayin overnight at the airport on thur night.. In this case, i'll be on time to send her off.. I guess my mood will drop totally when she leave that day, sorry if i get real moody ! After she leave, weekends i throw myself back to work.. This is the same old way to keep myself busy again .. I dunnoe hw to describe my feelin toward her, the feeling towards her is not like the same feelin toward Nee.. But to me she is still important but the feelin is just diff.. If nee is 1st, i guess she will be 2nd..

LuLu @ Sentosa wif Merlion

Next will be Cash

Luckly she dun have my blog link and pray she will nv have it coz all this stuff are nt meant for her to see.. I stil wanna be in contact wif her and dun wanna lose her..

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱

24/8/10

寂寞寂寞就好

還是原來那個我 不過撂掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會換這張臉應對笑容
不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯 早點認錯 早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉 我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你又改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼 什麼都沒有 早點看破 才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的 我總會把你戒掉

28/7/10

Days are gettin lesser each days.. I left wif 2 more days at work.. Bth weekends off, so i will enjoy my off day from sat all de way till 6th aug.. Yest went down-hill wif lulu and kaze for steamboat dinner.. Good dinner and great chat ! I wan more gatherin wif OBT peepo like 小妞，小琪，小眼，kai ning, LuLu,小柚 and more to list.. Yest manage to gif 小眼 a belated b'day surprise :)) Yest did a presentation for OBT staff and i did kind of hold back the thing i wanna sae, as i noe once i sae all out, i wil be emotional and that it...

Recently follow quite a few days of program for 静修女中, it's a gal sch.. Before i follow the program, some of my colleagues told me quite alot of them are abit bimbo ! Some of them are abit bimbo and there are some that are quite pretty n sweet too hahaha.. And when they noe or hear from someone that i'm actually not Taiwanese and i'm from Singapore, all of them just like come to me and: Ah dang 你是新加坡人啊？And then they will continue to ask n ask.. Today 1 of them even ask me: Do singapore haf handsome guys ? Hahaha.. Today when we are doing 1 activities like giving everyone a hi 5 or say thank to each other, lots of them are like Ah dang ah dang and they hi 5 till damn high.. I was like abit shocked coz they soo high.. When they are about to leave, for those that will in my group came n ask me ah dang可以跟你拍照吗？I'm like:可以阿.. Some of them ask for my msn n FB and 1 even ask me for my phone no ? I'm like phone no ?? In de end, i gif msn n my FB name coz phone no, abit weird ahh for me haa.. B4 they leave, 1 gal came n ask me ah dang：可以拍你吗？ I'm like: 拍我？ And she sae ya, can i haf ur individual pic? I'm like ohh okay can.. Feel kind of weird when she ask me that haaa.. And when they leave usually all of us will stand near the door n sae bye to them and i did that too, for today all of them came to me and like ah dang ah dang bye bye and all gif me hi 5 or hi 10 again ! Out of sudden i feel like i'm like star hahaha.. All of them are very 热情 and i do enjoy the lesson today and last week alot :) Tml wil be my last day of followin program, may it be a great wan :))

Yest i guess i do smth silly again when i went out wif her.. Yest when we will crossing the road, she drop something on the road and it roll into the middle of the road, and when i saw that i straight away went out and pick up the stuff for her and I did not even think twice whether is there any car or wad ? When she saw me went out to pick her stuff, she shouted ah dang(AD) 小心车！And when i pass her the stuff, she was like 你要小心啦，有车！I'm like 没关系 :) Yest I bought 1 small bottle and she asked me: why u buy this bottle or container? I'm like ohhh i intend to put stuff.. And i bought it coz i wanna put stuff and gif it to her b4 i leave.. She also ask me: so did u use ur material to make card that u bought that time ? I'm like ohhh stil doing and actually i alreadi make hers le.. And she sae next yr she wil come sg :)

Days r super near but stil pray for me that everything will go smoothly for the few days i left here :))

哭了又哭，想了又想 看了又看 聽了又聽 說了又說, 最後還是輸給了自己..

15/7/10

Times flies again, nw it is alreadi 15th of july.. Currently i onli left like 16 more days to end of july as i will stop workin by end of july and de rest will be my off day.. The days are like near for me to head back to sg but I have a confuse feeling.. The feeling is soo weird, basically it's just confuse !

Yest went to a night-market but i dunnoe where is it hahaha.. Coz it is zhao hui dat bring me,Lulu and 2 of the america interns.. I bought a cap at the night market too and i like it & LOVE it hahahaha..

Yest night was a gd night for me too.. Manage to chat wif her and get to noe stuff like wad is the 1st impression that i give her n more.. She told me that the 1st time she saw me at de hostel in the room, she felt that i was unfriendly & cool and i give ppl de feelin that dun come and disturb me.. N she sae actually she intend or thinking to come like sae hi or chat wif me but i was like playin wif my NDS n i'm like cool & unfriendly again ! When she told me yest i'm like hahaha serious ah ? Dan she sae yesh, u're like soo unfriendly n cool cool ! I told her, tis is nt the 1st time ppl sae dat.. Dan the 2nd time when we met at de kayakin events, she felt diff as i volunteer to kayak wif her when i noe dat no one like wan to kayak wif her and she sae i was more friendly and nt soo cool anymore.. And till then de whole impression just change hahaha.. And she sae at the kayakin events, i was the 2nd person that make her feel warm or warm-hearted :)

After the nightmarket, we went back to office to get our stuff.. And bth of us walk back to hostel together, and bth of us chat again.. I was glad dat we kind of chat abt lots of stuff, and the feeling is gd.. Told alicia regardin some other stuff too.. B4 i leave i will get her some stuff and i also get some stuff to make like small cards too :)

Tml onwards to sun, i wil not be able to online as i will be helpin out in an 3days 2 night camp ! Maybe sun i might online, if not then have to wait till mon alreadi.. I guess that shld be all for today.. Stil pray for me that everything wil go smoothly :) Byee peepo and wil try to blog more :)

心臟是一座有兩間臥室的房子。一間住著痛苦，另一間住著歡樂。人不能笑得太響，否則笑聲會吵醒隔壁房間的痛苦..

4/7/10

It already July ! So it means i onli left wif 1 months..Very soon i wil be back hm, back to where i belong ever since i was born hahaha.. I had been doin well over here, thing had been doing quite well for me.. Get to noe alot of gd frens and great colleagues like: LuLu, 小眼，Kai Ning, 小妞，小琪 and more.. No matter whether is it in office,during program or after work, it is always so nice..

I noe dat when i leave, for sure I will miss them all alot but there is 1 particular person that i will realli miss her.. I guess even if i'm back at sg i will stil miss her for certain period of time.. Even though bth of us just get to noe each other for 2 weeks but bth of us get along well like as if we noe each other for mths.. Hmm, i guess when back to sg, i need time to adjust back everything, maybe including her too.. I'm nt sure will i keep visiting taiwan becoz of her or will i work n work just to save more $ in order to go taiwan to visit her n all.. I dunnoe and i haf no ideas of it, thing are just hard to predict but i noe that i still do wanna keep in contact wif her n of coz those OBT staff like 小眼，Kai Ning, 小妞，小琪..

3 of us trying to pose or advertise for our food & Drinks !

LuLu wif all those cream all over her face n credit to me :p

Smile :)

Well, i guess it shld be all for today.. Wil try to blog and update more soon :) Stil pray for me dat everything wil be smoothly :) Byee peepo !

其实很简单, 其实很自然