Sick

I gt 2 days MC from sch and I was resting and sleeping at home throughout the whole day.. For wed i woke up ard 10 plus n measure my temperature and i was down with fever still.. Went to see a doc and gt 2 days MC n all those medicine n doc give me vitamin for to boost up my immune system too .. I like de vitamin hahaha.. After seein de doc, went home n had lunch but i could nt finish and i eat till very tired, ate my medicine, online for awhile and went to slp till 6 plus dan woke up but I'm stil very tired so I continue to slp till 8 plus til 9 for my dinner.. Went back to slp at 11 plus after havin my medicine

Today wake up at 10 plus again, ate some bread n watch TV.. Had lunch ard 12 plus n had my medicine again, online for awhile and went to slp till 5 plus again.. Juz had my dinner like 2 hrs ago, ltr gonna eat my medicine again n went to slp again.. Falling sick is soo horrible coz I feel soo tired and my mind is soo tired too, everytime I eat, i feel dat it is soo tired to eat.. This is the 1st time i feel that eatin can be soo tired too :(

Okay I gt to go get some rest as tml i wil be gg back to sch alreadi.. I miss the spot-check sms again :( Will I still receive tis (^.^) from her ? Maybe all tis wil speed up my recovery, okay i'm talkin nonense again ! Byee & GD night to u n her :)

这对你着迷的心 留下难看的字迹

哀愁

一直以来快乐悲伤都由自己判刑，也许因此身边的人也忘了我也值得被关心。。 歡笑淚水说起来好像很简单， 但当辜負，失望，墮落，傷痛，憎恨都一一的浮现出来，一彻只剩下淚水。。有时候我们都会痛到忘了要怎么喊痛， 可是最后还是選擇了愛她勝過爱自己。。

漫长的等候让人特别失落 锋锐寂寞把天空都割破 。。从来都陷在孤独的流沙里 人们也忘了我也配被人在意， 一个人一直走看着梦像做了最后又空 精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊呢 ？那是谁的温柔留在我的小手 微不足道却那么重却又让我一直想着它。。 (寂寞光年)

AND I gt A for my UT 2 for my adventure Education !! Woo LALA :) But i am down wif cough, slight fever and body ache :( Yest physical trainin realli make my body ache .. Got to rest now.. Gd night to u n her :)

整个世界是沉默的漩涡

27/7/09

I guess Blogger do not work well when i at home but it work well in sch hahaha.. Betta blog in sch as i want to post pics.. Yest after work went bottle tree park for dinner with cousins n family.. The food dere was quite nice but was ex as well, over dere was quite nice gt quite alot of thing to do n enjoy over dere but i will nv head dere for prawning coz it damn ex and i belief there is nt much prawn dere as well, i would always prefer Bishan wan :)

On sat at work, huilin give me smth n it a farewell gifts as her attachments is finishing soon.. Soo sad, wil miss disturbin her by making MR PIG hahaha .. Below are de gift that huilin did for us, mine is in green :)

Sha Sha, Juraidah, Dang

Soon i will get de S.H.E 爱的3温暖 book, and i will be able to read the thing they wrote and also de drawing by Ella :)) It's boring in class, soo boring.. Byee to u n her

付出的 也全都伤痕累累

I had choose my elective module for sem 2 alreadi, the module I had chose is Sports business… At first was caught in between sports business and sports coaching, but in the end stil choose sports business as all along I had been interested in business thingy. Did ask nee for some advice as well but she sae it afterall my decision dat is important :)

Seriously there is smth wrong wif blogger and it is damn irritating. Dunnoe wad wrong with it ?

每个人心里都有一道墙，我也不例外。。我心里的那道墙只有一个人能把它拆掉。。我們必須付出太多情感來面對那些我們所愛的人給予的快乐和不快乐， 就算不快乐也不会把它显现出来 因为不想让她看到你不开心的那一面。。对于爱情给我们的那些快乐和伤痛我們都停不下來 ,一直都停不下來的喜怒哀乐。

因為有些太深刻的回忆都太痛撤了 ,導致有些東西永遠都无法忘掉。。愛人太痛了對吧 ？

Saw this from Nana msn personal message: Dun let someone be your priority while you are just an option to them.. I feel that it is really true but 我早就已经把她放在优先了。。

Tml n sun is work again.. Byee and night to u n her :)

一直从昨天 一直到今天 , 一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

20/7/09

Happie 21st B'day PAT PAT !!!!

Today is ah Pat B'day and on sat alreadi pass her B'day present !! Last yr is famous amos cookie and tis year is chocolate and 1 shampoon ..

Class had been quite fun and nice but lesson boring la hahahaha !! Bal keep disturb me, keep callin me Min Min !! Ahhhh no one had been callin me for like damn long n pls dun call me dat coz i hate it n soo gal la !!!

When we gt nth much to do after class n sch having H1N1 :p

他妈的，那些男人是没有脑吗？真的那么需要女人吗 ？一天没有女朋友会死啊！王八蛋， 把女人当什么。。 Seriously i dunnoe wad those guys wan ? Can't they juz fucking live their days without GF or gals juz for a period of time uh !!! Those guys betta dun come n mess with my friends ..

Byee, gt to prepare for presentation alreadi.. Haf a great day to u n her :))

心软弱了 逃避是非 潜意识 我心碎

18/7/09

Juz had steamboat dinner wif family, cousin celine n weilee and auntie.. The food was okay n i was realli full :) Tml after work dinner wif family again, tml is wif cousin jieying & BF, cousin jingyi n uncle n auntie.. I'm soo tired juz nw and i fall aslp on de way home on cousin celine car.. I nid lots of sleep n rest :( Give me more time, and i wil use it for sleeping hahahaha :D

Sometime i just don't understand those guys or shld i sae Malay guys ? Are u guys seriously soo desperate for gals or chinese gals ? Soo desperate till u guys go ard telling ppl or confess to ppl and sae those thing like : I realli like u or wadeva.. Bullshit n nonense la !!! STOP going ard n tell ppl dat i realli like u coz You had been telling this to dunnoe hw many plenty of gals uh !!!! 他妈的，去死吧 ！！ 没有大脑的人，想到就气死了！

我的眼睛好累噢，就快要闭上了。。我要睡了，累了。。 再见吧，晚安咯。。Gd night to u n her then :)

也许是我自己掩饰的不够好吧...

Currently nw in sch, at 1st dun realli wan to come sch as it's raining and i wan to go home half way, totally no mood and stil thinking about other thing.. Juz like 2hrs ago, i saw my fone blinkin as i switch to silent mode, and it a phone call.. She call back :) I dunnoe hw to describle my feeling, but i'm realli happie.. Coz it nt like wad others sae like she ignore my call or... Okay i seriously dunnoe wad i wanna type or sae anymore, I'm juz glad dat she call back :) I noe once again i sounded realli silly again ..

隐藏的笑容。。

沒原因的等著，没有目的地一直向前走。。風吹過多少哀愁 多少回忆，但是它从没把伤心和难过吹走我身边。。 放棄从不跟我说：是时候了，放下吧 不想等了,就走吧。。坚持却常跟我说：如果等待会有结果，就等吧 就坚持吧。。

我每一次都會在這邊微笑的看著你這麼快樂， 看着你的的笑容。。所有人都有這個權利选择他们或我们所要的, 原本的, 我要不要? 卻變成, 我可不可以? 為什麼呢 ？兜了了一圈，又回到原地了。。

That should be all, it time for lesson and work time :) Byee to u n her, have a great day ahead :)

沉默的瞬间 寂寞却伴着我长眠

Finally

Finally after soo much consideration and thinking, I give her a call.. Thank to edmund from helpin me in someways :)) She did nt ans de call, actually b4 i make de call, i alreadi knew that she will nt pick de call but edmund sae at least give her a miss call and she know that u call her, whether she call u back, it up to her alreadi.. Seriously, it took me quite sometime to make tis call, everytime i wanna make de call, i'll think abt lots of thing like "will I disturb her in someways ? Is she busy or ? " Tis are all de thing that i always think when i sms her or call her ..
Oh ya, today is Meishan B'day !! Happie 23rd b'day to u, may all ur wishes come true :)

心裡最深的牽掛 越想遺忘越不能忘。。我一直都在想怎样才能把这一彻都做的更好，我不断的在想不断的在思考，我却找不到答案。。 是不是我爱你太多，给你太多了？ 累了，晚安吧。。 去睡了。。

Silent...

I'll nv break your heart, I'll nv make you cry (Never i wil do that)
爱得汹涌　来不及闪躲 我却为她坠落

Wonderin

Yest was my cousin celine weddin, everything went well and i realli feel happie for her ;) Share some fotos of my little nephew and Celine's cousin daughter .. It was realli fun and i enjoy the whole process helpin my cousin for her weddin :)

CHEESE

Are they cute ?

My nephew Joshua :)

For the past few days, i do nt haf enough slp n i was dead tired.. yawning everyday in class, feelin soo tired :( 2day i wear de new uniform, it was pretty gd, and i haf nt much negative comments abt dat hahaha ..

Yest when i was at helpin my cousin to do smth at the hotel ballroom for their weddin dinner and my phone ring.. The phone ring when i was on de way up to my cousin suite.. When i hear tat ringtone, i was like .... and i quickly took out my phone n ans it.. Her side was very noisy and i could nt realli hear wad she sae, i onli hear wait for awhile n i waited but in de end de line was cut off... After 5 to 10min, she call again but i could nt hear anything she sae, i dunnoe wad happen seriously.. After tat i sms her but no reply.. I shld have call back yest, nw i'm stil waitin for de call or sms ...

Everyday I sit and ask myself, How did love slip away ? I'll be there, I am here with you (You are not alone )

这房间容不下我的伤心 因为你切歌的坚定 停止我呼吸

永遠

ポロポロ手のひらから零れる悲しみ my love
今夜この街でたぶん私が一番泣いている

君に愛されたから私は私になれた
季節を運ぶ風よどうかあの日の永遠を還して
bye bye bye, Why did you say bye bye?
Why did you say bye bye

English Transaltion
Tears drop into the palm of my hand
Sadness overflows, my love
In this city tonight
I’m probably crying more than anyone

I was able to be myself Because you loved me
Oh, wind of the seasons
Please give back that day’s eternity

I had been listenin to BoA songs 永遠 everyday.. At least a day i wil listen to 3 to 4 times and nw my msg tone is tis songs as well.. Can see that hw much i like tis songs rite ? Above are the chorus lyrics for tis songs.. Hardly i like jap songs soo much haa :)

Class had been quite gd and i kind of enjoy the lesson.. Tml gg to cut my hair n will be headin down to Ncore to take alook at de bag size and will made a deposit if the bag is okay to me.. The bag is sellin soo fast dat it out of stock so i gt to make a deposit 1st n then they will do a restock for that :) Wed will be gg town wif sis as we gt to purchase thing for cousin celine weddin, thur wil be meeting AJ bro & fangan for dinner n chattin session.. Miss them alot seriously :)

And I love my classmates !! They're a bunch of fun ppl :) Can go my facebook n see wad we do in class or outdoor :) Anyway that all, gt to acc my nephew to play games.. Byee gd night to u n her then .. :)

就算你发现也好 我想你一定会选择 假装不知道

累了

I guess i am feeling tired again, de feeling is back again... I realise dat myself is stil holding on although i tryin hard not to.. I'm feelin very tired and i do not have any energy left to hold on, I gt to let go, but sometime when i wan to let go, the feelin is back and it make me hold on again.. I dunnoe wad happen but it is just like a cycle and i'm realli tired,realli realli tired and i do not have any energy anymore..

我累了，我想我已经没有力气。。也许是应该放手了，可是我办的到吗？有很多事想说却没有办法说出口，所以只好把一彻都收起来。。

Argh ... Everything just suck 2day, sch suck, my home suck, everything suck !!!! I hate everything today, EVERYTHING !!!!!!! I dun wan myself to do thing that i dun like anymore, I'm not gg just to do that thing to please someone or just wan everything to be fine then i do it !! NO MORE i will do that, it enough, it had reach my limit !!!!! My attitude will nt be like last time anymore, I dun like it or i dun wan to go i will sae NO !!! My mood is nt gd at all today, i'm damn fucking PISSED !! My mum pissed me off, seriously.. Wad wrong of me sayin i dunnoe wad i wan to eat for dinner, that y i came back empty-handed after walking out ? Can't i have a choice to choose whether wad i wan or nt ? She can haf the rights to make de last min changes for dinner, she choose to eat wif my aunties n uncles when they called her at 8.30pm !! She noe that i dun like to go out to eat wif them n i will nt go so i will be alone n buy my own dinner or wadeva ? So why can't i make my own decision uh ? Sometime i just hate to stay at home, i hate everything !! I damn nid to vent out my anger, i throw my pillow all ard my room juz nw !!! ARGH !!!!! Hell shit ...

By2 suppose to come our sch next tue for their autograph session but nw as our sch is soo popular of H1N1, tis event is cancelled !! Now everyone will noe hw popular is RP famous for uh ? That shld be all, Byeee to u n her & haf a gd day ahead then :)

"因为心痛，选择不见面和躲开。。如果这样会因此失去最珍惜的 人，心应该会更痛吧。。"

Afterall

Tis few days, i had been kind of restless and i feel very tired.. Even though tis wk trainin is cancel due to H1N1 but i stil feel very tired after sch almost everyday.. Joshua n cousin is back in singapore and he still soo cute although he is very hyper.. On mon when we will havin our dinner, he is soo tired dat he fall aslp at de restaurant.. When we will headin home, i carried him back to auntie hse, soo glad to have a nephew and bth of us was born on 13thnov :)

And i dunnoe y i can't post pic to my blog !! Seriously dunnoe wad happen ? Yest night I had been thinking, am i able to move completely ? Tis had been on my mind when i think back wad she told me 2 years ago ? Move on n be happy in future, find someone that will gif me less troubles more happiness... Tat someone will nv appear, i guess.. Even if it appeared, i will nt even accept it or realise it coz i'm too stubborn.. Tat shld be all for 2day, if i haf more to type i will update again.. Gd night to u n her :)

感情很微妙 再多付出也好 再多关心都徒劳