累了

I guess i am feeling tired again, de feeling is back again... I realise dat myself is stil holding on although i tryin hard not to.. I'm feelin very tired and i do not have any energy left to hold on, I gt to let go, but sometime when i wan to let go, the feelin is back and it make me hold on again.. I dunnoe wad happen but it is just like a cycle and i'm realli tired,realli realli tired and i do not have any energy anymore..

我累了，我想我已经没有力气。。也许是应该放手了，可是我办的到吗？有很多事想说却没有办法说出口，所以只好把一彻都收起来。。

Argh ... Everything just suck 2day, sch suck, my home suck, everything suck !!!! I hate everything today, EVERYTHING !!!!!!! I dun wan myself to do thing that i dun like anymore, I'm not gg just to do that thing to please someone or just wan everything to be fine then i do it !! NO MORE i will do that, it enough, it had reach my limit !!!!! My attitude will nt be like last time anymore, I dun like it or i dun wan to go i will sae NO !!! My mood is nt gd at all today, i'm damn fucking PISSED !! My mum pissed me off, seriously.. Wad wrong of me sayin i dunnoe wad i wan to eat for dinner, that y i came back empty-handed after walking out ? Can't i have a choice to choose whether wad i wan or nt ? She can haf the rights to make de last min changes for dinner, she choose to eat wif my aunties n uncles when they called her at 8.30pm !! She noe that i dun like to go out to eat wif them n i will nt go so i will be alone n buy my own dinner or wadeva ? So why can't i make my own decision uh ? Sometime i just hate to stay at home, i hate everything !! I damn nid to vent out my anger, i throw my pillow all ard my room juz nw !!! ARGH !!!!! Hell shit ...

By2 suppose to come our sch next tue for their autograph session but nw as our sch is soo popular of H1N1, tis event is cancelled !! Now everyone will noe hw popular is RP famous for uh ? That shld be all, Byeee to u n her & haf a gd day ahead then :)

"因为心痛，选择不见面和躲开。。如果这样会因此失去最珍惜的 人，心应该会更痛吧。。"