改变 ？

不要想著去改變誰，誰也不會為了誰去改變，你的不同只是應付只是討好短時間有起色，但不長久做爛了會顯得噁心... 每次往前一步都很吃力，同样的每次冷靜一次都消耗很多時间.. 这都够了吧, 应该慢慢的停下来了..

當我們都笑的開心自然就顯得天真無邪，但如果那是你未曾看懂的表情，代表有種悲傷也已經走到末路難以遮掩的程度了, 听起来还蛮可悲的吧 ? 愛 這東西沒有原則，太難掌控太容易失控，像是那些狀況不是我們能預設的了吧 ？痛苦是短暫的，但客觀的說是需要一點時 間去适应一彻的一彻 ...

下雨天太容易往下掉, 太容易胡思亂想, 太容易躲進黑洞, 太容易想念, 太容易感性, 太容易哭泣, 太容易懦弱, 太容易沈默....

來來回回的總是令人特別沮喪，好像先前的都沒有發生過一樣...

27/3/10

My dear blog, i am comin back to u nw.. I guess, u're de only place dat i would come here sae everything when i realli needed and consider i'm nt lazy to type all tis thing out..

I met up wif her 2day :) I noe quite alot of ppl might be thinkin hw come u're meetin her n why ? The reason is juz simple, I wanna met up wif her, have a gd chat, see her, noe hw is she doing n all b4 i leave for attachment.. Maybe alot of ppl are worried abt me meetin her coz it might nt be good to me.. But nt to worry i'm fine, betta dan last time if happen to compare :)

But well, when i was waitin for her my heart beat was like soo fast, i could nt even control it.. But when she reached, i'm like calm.. I'm nt gg to realli sae or elaborate everything here as i noe some ppl haf my blog-link..I dun wan to let others dat r nt close wif me to noe abt thing dat is kind of personal to me.. So i wil update my close fren regardin the whole issue..

I enjoy de whole chattin session and it was a great wan, i realli enjoy every moments of that.. We chat abt lots of thing, maybe get to noe abt each other slightly even more.. I stil could nt figure out why did she ask me that question ? It make me stunned for at least 3 secs b4 i ans dat question.. De more she ask, de more i do not noe hw to ans her haha.. She always surprise me wif stuff dat i nv expect from her.. One of the thing dat make me realli happie n contented is when i pass her an gift dat i buy from jap, she accept it ! She did nt sae no or dun wan.. She accept it but stil gif me de face like wad is it or did u anyhw spend $ again ? I gave her a 平安符 or like may all your wishes come true de 符 for her.. I did nt expect her to like use it straight away, she juz took it out n see and she juz like put or tied it on her phone as like accessories or ... At dat point of time, i realli feel very contented, for me that like enough, it more than enough :) I hope de 符 will realli bless her n may everything she wish come true..

I do not hope or wish for anything and I told myself dat dun think soo much keep 灌输 myself n tell myself dat No No No, stop ! 朋友们，我很好 我没有事！现在的我应该是心满意足了，现在都很好。。谢谢（妮）

谢谢你，完整所有的画面，让一彻都变的甜美，也让一彻都好像只有喜悦 。。

15/3/10

It a mixture feelin again.. Like stuck ! Alittle bit of this n dat, sometime u feel so helpless n it keep bother u when this issue happen n happen again.. It affect everything u do, ur mood n just everything.. It make u soo tired dan u dun wan bother abt it anymore n just wan to put it aside n see hw thing will be by it own ..

Anyway on fri, i met up wif 3 different grps of people.. I went like 3 to 4 places in an day and all is different area.. Afternoon i went to kovan to cut my hair, after that i head to bukit panjang to meet julia to pass her smth n chat wif her awhile, then i head to AMK to meet up wif ah ju n ah oon.. We slack at MOS burger, chat n disturb each other, then after that i head to PS to meetup wif pearline.. Ever area i head to is like far from each, n it took me like at least 1 hr to reach another places like kovan to bukit panjang n then to AMK ! Even my ipod went off on me, when i was at bukit panjang waitin for Julia, it went low batt.. I was like gosh, i stil have another journey to go ehh ! lucky i gt my fone, n sms start to come in as well, enterainment for de journey to AMK hahahah :p

I can sense n feel that, my fren care for me n i realli, seriously appreciate it n of coz glad to have them :) I guess, one of their worries is afraid that i might end up get hurt again.. That 1 of my own worries as well, de feelin is realli bad n worse.. I had been in dere for few times and it took me long to get out of dat.. Recently quite a few of my fren had been tellin me: J look like her, her smile look like her n de feelin is abit dere.. Tis cause me to think is it the reason that make me wanna noe more abt her or ?

I had been tellin myself nt to click on her, refrain from doing that.. Actually wad i can do is delete her away but i dun bear too.. I dunnoe is it that i am too use to see her name poppin out, juz like when my inbox sms are gone, i feel weird n empty coz whenever i went to my inbox, her name always appear as i did nt delete away her sms even though i did nt browse thru it for quite sometime.. Well, nw all de sms is gone, so shall see hw it goes as time passes :)

I have an new name recently: Silly Dang Dang :) Tis wan given by J.. I realise i'll fall in more deep when u use silly on me.. I once fall for it b4 n it real deep, but when it gone, I drop totally

爱究竟有多累 有多美，伤悲的伤悲的很绝对..

12/3/10

I'm back from my japan trip ! 7 days at japan was fun and freezin cold hahaha.. The weather dere was realli cold.. I enjoy the trip alot and i bought alot of thing back, spent all my money hahahaha.. I dunnoe wad to type abt my jap trip le ehh, coz if type dan is like damn freakin long and i'm kind of lazy also hahaha so head my FB to see my pic n video.. Pic is uploaded alreadi, slowly will be up as well

On wed, bro n jiemin came to my hse for dao huey n carrot cake n i wanted to pass them their gift also hahahaha.. It was a fun fun day, we chat n chat n then juz disturb each other.. After that we went to town area to slack, haf coffee, shop ard, had dinner n went movie together.. Ah oon sleep durin de movie and she stil dare to tell me i nv sleep, i onli in de wonderland .. I was like -_-' I enjoy de meetup soo more of that pls hahahah :)

When bro came my hse, she told me smth like u nv go online ah ? I was like no ah, wad happen ? In my heart i was thinkin, what could it be ? In de end i asked her, n i was right.. I seriously did nt expect that ... I was kind of affected at that point of time .. N i noe Bro was kind of worried as well ba, coz i alreadi decided to noe more abt the other person (J) n nw she is like back n this might affect me again ! At this moment, i manage to noe more abt the other person (J)and i was glad dat we manage to chat abt our personal stuff :) I do not wish to think abt any stuff nw, wil juz let thing be de way hw it should be or hw fate wan it to be ? Nth i could change too..

Ltr mostly will be meetin J to pass her stuff, n i enjoy yest chat wif her :) N i will be meetin her soon b4 i leave for my attachment, i dunnoe hw thing will turn out but shall see hw ba !

该怎么办，你不简单 但我就爱。。

2th mar

Okay i'm back to blogging again ! If nt tat ah oon sae my blog like dead liao, no compo lo unlike hers like soo exciting man hahahhaha..

Last fri went out wif alicia,jiemin, julin & aj Bro ! Went marina barrage to picnic n also gif that ah ju surprise hahaha.. The events will created by me :) 1st is wanna luo hei dan in de end i plan everything.. Reason for Marina barrage is, my aj bro always wanted to head there to see see or picnic so that is de reason y it is Marina barrage.. N then in de end we put Julin surprise on dat as well, suppose her another surprise is on sat but she sae she nt free so we put everything on fri instead ! luckly it was a great surprise i guess haa.. Coz julin gt touched touched when she saw de video, cookie cake, OS shirt wif flowers n of coz de bottle of SWEET ! After MB, we went to khatib n get jiemin fav dao huey n then head back to Alicia hse for slackin session.. I tink her place is like de cosy cosy place lo, we like love to slack at her hse hahahaha :)

Marina Barrage Succeed !!

Sat afternoon meetup wif michelle & dawn to bring them to my cousin shop to do spects ! As usual, michelle is late hahahahha :p after dat dawn went off for her church ! Michelle n me head down to AMK to meet mason for lunch, b4 mason reach we went n get KOI milk tea, love it to de max hahaha :) After that we went to pepper lunch and we chat n slack for 3 hrs ! 3 of us juz sit dere n chat n maybe gossip abt ppl ard us hahahaha ! After that michelle went off, n mason n me went down to town to get movie tix.. While waitin for denyse, Shi hui n vincent, we went walkin ard n slack n chat again hahaha :) love those chattin session !

Sun is a day out wif fangan ! Went to national museum to watch the Quest for Immortality - The World of Ancient Egypt ! It was quite interesting coz i am quite interested to noe abt all those stuff hahaha.. Free admission for bth of us coz STUDENT ! Great to be a student beh hahaha :p N i gt 1 pair of new shoes from left foot.. Walk ard, slack n ate some stuff n head to airport to look for bro for la KOPI session :)

Tml i will be flyin off to JAPAN le .. 1 week of enjoy n relax time :) Byee singapore n let welcome JAPAN !! My days had been doing quite gd recently, i realli would like to noe u better :) Soo glad that i'm able to chat wif u b4 i fly off to japan :) I guess slowly i will get to noe u better, everything shall start from frens :)Hopefully able to meet up wif u when i'm back..


当你终于走到我的面前，完整所有的画面 ...