15/3/10

It a mixture feelin again.. Like stuck ! Alittle bit of this n dat, sometime u feel so helpless n it keep bother u when this issue happen n happen again.. It affect everything u do, ur mood n just everything.. It make u soo tired dan u dun wan bother abt it anymore n just wan to put it aside n see hw thing will be by it own ..

Anyway on fri, i met up wif 3 different grps of people.. I went like 3 to 4 places in an day and all is different area.. Afternoon i went to kovan to cut my hair, after that i head to bukit panjang to meet julia to pass her smth n chat wif her awhile, then i head to AMK to meet up wif ah ju n ah oon.. We slack at MOS burger, chat n disturb each other, then after that i head to PS to meetup wif pearline.. Ever area i head to is like far from each, n it took me like at least 1 hr to reach another places like kovan to bukit panjang n then to AMK ! Even my ipod went off on me, when i was at bukit panjang waitin for Julia, it went low batt.. I was like gosh, i stil have another journey to go ehh ! lucky i gt my fone, n sms start to come in as well, enterainment for de journey to AMK hahahah :p

I can sense n feel that, my fren care for me n i realli, seriously appreciate it n of coz glad to have them :) I guess, one of their worries is afraid that i might end up get hurt again.. That 1 of my own worries as well, de feelin is realli bad n worse.. I had been in dere for few times and it took me long to get out of dat.. Recently quite a few of my fren had been tellin me: J look like her, her smile look like her n de feelin is abit dere.. Tis cause me to think is it the reason that make me wanna noe more abt her or ?

I had been tellin myself nt to click on her, refrain from doing that.. Actually wad i can do is delete her away but i dun bear too.. I dunnoe is it that i am too use to see her name poppin out, juz like when my inbox sms are gone, i feel weird n empty coz whenever i went to my inbox, her name always appear as i did nt delete away her sms even though i did nt browse thru it for quite sometime.. Well, nw all de sms is gone, so shall see hw it goes as time passes :)

I have an new name recently: Silly Dang Dang :) Tis wan given by J.. I realise i'll fall in more deep when u use silly on me.. I once fall for it b4 n it real deep, but when it gone, I drop totally

爱究竟有多累 有多美，伤悲的伤悲的很绝对..