18/7/09

Juz had steamboat dinner wif family, cousin celine n weilee and auntie.. The food was okay n i was realli full :) Tml after work dinner wif family again, tml is wif cousin jieying & BF, cousin jingyi n uncle n auntie.. I'm soo tired juz nw and i fall aslp on de way home on cousin celine car.. I nid lots of sleep n rest :( Give me more time, and i wil use it for sleeping hahahaha :D

Sometime i just don't understand those guys or shld i sae Malay guys ? Are u guys seriously soo desperate for gals or chinese gals ? Soo desperate till u guys go ard telling ppl or confess to ppl and sae those thing like : I realli like u or wadeva.. Bullshit n nonense la !!! STOP going ard n tell ppl dat i realli like u coz You had been telling this to dunnoe hw many plenty of gals uh !!!! 他妈的，去死吧 ！！ 没有大脑的人，想到就气死了！

我的眼睛好累噢，就快要闭上了。。我要睡了，累了。。 再见吧，晚安咯。。Gd night to u n her then :)

也许是我自己掩饰的不够好吧...

Currently nw in sch, at 1st dun realli wan to come sch as it's raining and i wan to go home half way, totally no mood and stil thinking about other thing.. Juz like 2hrs ago, i saw my fone blinkin as i switch to silent mode, and it a phone call.. She call back :) I dunnoe hw to describle my feeling, but i'm realli happie.. Coz it nt like wad others sae like she ignore my call or... Okay i seriously dunnoe wad i wanna type or sae anymore, I'm juz glad dat she call back :) I noe once again i sounded realli silly again ..

隐藏的笑容。。

沒原因的等著，没有目的地一直向前走。。風吹過多少哀愁 多少回忆，但是它从没把伤心和难过吹走我身边。。 放棄从不跟我说：是时候了，放下吧 不想等了,就走吧。。坚持却常跟我说：如果等待会有结果，就等吧 就坚持吧。。

我每一次都會在這邊微笑的看著你這麼快樂， 看着你的的笑容。。所有人都有這個權利选择他们或我们所要的, 原本的, 我要不要? 卻變成, 我可不可以? 為什麼呢 ？兜了了一圈，又回到原地了。。

That should be all, it time for lesson and work time :) Byee to u n her, have a great day ahead :)

沉默的瞬间 寂寞却伴着我长眠

Finally

Finally after soo much consideration and thinking, I give her a call.. Thank to edmund from helpin me in someways :)) She did nt ans de call, actually b4 i make de call, i alreadi knew that she will nt pick de call but edmund sae at least give her a miss call and she know that u call her, whether she call u back, it up to her alreadi.. Seriously, it took me quite sometime to make tis call, everytime i wanna make de call, i'll think abt lots of thing like "will I disturb her in someways ? Is she busy or ? " Tis are all de thing that i always think when i sms her or call her ..
Oh ya, today is Meishan B'day !! Happie 23rd b'day to u, may all ur wishes come true :)

心裡最深的牽掛 越想遺忘越不能忘。。我一直都在想怎样才能把这一彻都做的更好，我不断的在想不断的在思考，我却找不到答案。。 是不是我爱你太多，给你太多了？ 累了，晚安吧。。 去睡了。。

Silent...

I'll nv break your heart, I'll nv make you cry (Never i wil do that)
爱得汹涌　来不及闪躲 我却为她坠落

Wonderin

Yest was my cousin celine weddin, everything went well and i realli feel happie for her ;) Share some fotos of my little nephew and Celine's cousin daughter .. It was realli fun and i enjoy the whole process helpin my cousin for her weddin :)

CHEESE

Are they cute ?

My nephew Joshua :)

For the past few days, i do nt haf enough slp n i was dead tired.. yawning everyday in class, feelin soo tired :( 2day i wear de new uniform, it was pretty gd, and i haf nt much negative comments abt dat hahaha ..

Yest when i was at helpin my cousin to do smth at the hotel ballroom for their weddin dinner and my phone ring.. The phone ring when i was on de way up to my cousin suite.. When i hear tat ringtone, i was like .... and i quickly took out my phone n ans it.. Her side was very noisy and i could nt realli hear wad she sae, i onli hear wait for awhile n i waited but in de end de line was cut off... After 5 to 10min, she call again but i could nt hear anything she sae, i dunnoe wad happen seriously.. After tat i sms her but no reply.. I shld have call back yest, nw i'm stil waitin for de call or sms ...

Everyday I sit and ask myself, How did love slip away ? I'll be there, I am here with you (You are not alone )

这房间容不下我的伤心 因为你切歌的坚定 停止我呼吸

永遠

ポロポロ手のひらから零れる悲しみ my love
今夜この街でたぶん私が一番泣いている

君に愛されたから私は私になれた
季節を運ぶ風よどうかあの日の永遠を還して
bye bye bye, Why did you say bye bye?
Why did you say bye bye

English Transaltion
Tears drop into the palm of my hand
Sadness overflows, my love
In this city tonight
I’m probably crying more than anyone

I was able to be myself Because you loved me
Oh, wind of the seasons
Please give back that day’s eternity

I had been listenin to BoA songs 永遠 everyday.. At least a day i wil listen to 3 to 4 times and nw my msg tone is tis songs as well.. Can see that hw much i like tis songs rite ? Above are the chorus lyrics for tis songs.. Hardly i like jap songs soo much haa :)

Class had been quite gd and i kind of enjoy the lesson.. Tml gg to cut my hair n will be headin down to Ncore to take alook at de bag size and will made a deposit if the bag is okay to me.. The bag is sellin soo fast dat it out of stock so i gt to make a deposit 1st n then they will do a restock for that :) Wed will be gg town wif sis as we gt to purchase thing for cousin celine weddin, thur wil be meeting AJ bro & fangan for dinner n chattin session.. Miss them alot seriously :)

And I love my classmates !! They're a bunch of fun ppl :) Can go my facebook n see wad we do in class or outdoor :) Anyway that all, gt to acc my nephew to play games.. Byee gd night to u n her then .. :)

就算你发现也好 我想你一定会选择 假装不知道

累了

I guess i am feeling tired again, de feeling is back again... I realise dat myself is stil holding on although i tryin hard not to.. I'm feelin very tired and i do not have any energy left to hold on, I gt to let go, but sometime when i wan to let go, the feelin is back and it make me hold on again.. I dunnoe wad happen but it is just like a cycle and i'm realli tired,realli realli tired and i do not have any energy anymore..

我累了，我想我已经没有力气。。也许是应该放手了，可是我办的到吗？有很多事想说却没有办法说出口，所以只好把一彻都收起来。。

Argh ... Everything just suck 2day, sch suck, my home suck, everything suck !!!! I hate everything today, EVERYTHING !!!!!!! I dun wan myself to do thing that i dun like anymore, I'm not gg just to do that thing to please someone or just wan everything to be fine then i do it !! NO MORE i will do that, it enough, it had reach my limit !!!!! My attitude will nt be like last time anymore, I dun like it or i dun wan to go i will sae NO !!! My mood is nt gd at all today, i'm damn fucking PISSED !! My mum pissed me off, seriously.. Wad wrong of me sayin i dunnoe wad i wan to eat for dinner, that y i came back empty-handed after walking out ? Can't i have a choice to choose whether wad i wan or nt ? She can haf the rights to make de last min changes for dinner, she choose to eat wif my aunties n uncles when they called her at 8.30pm !! She noe that i dun like to go out to eat wif them n i will nt go so i will be alone n buy my own dinner or wadeva ? So why can't i make my own decision uh ? Sometime i just hate to stay at home, i hate everything !! I damn nid to vent out my anger, i throw my pillow all ard my room juz nw !!! ARGH !!!!! Hell shit ...

By2 suppose to come our sch next tue for their autograph session but nw as our sch is soo popular of H1N1, tis event is cancelled !! Now everyone will noe hw popular is RP famous for uh ? That shld be all, Byeee to u n her & haf a gd day ahead then :)

"因为心痛，选择不见面和躲开。。如果这样会因此失去最珍惜的 人，心应该会更痛吧。。"

Afterall

Tis few days, i had been kind of restless and i feel very tired.. Even though tis wk trainin is cancel due to H1N1 but i stil feel very tired after sch almost everyday.. Joshua n cousin is back in singapore and he still soo cute although he is very hyper.. On mon when we will havin our dinner, he is soo tired dat he fall aslp at de restaurant.. When we will headin home, i carried him back to auntie hse, soo glad to have a nephew and bth of us was born on 13thnov :)

And i dunnoe y i can't post pic to my blog !! Seriously dunnoe wad happen ? Yest night I had been thinking, am i able to move completely ? Tis had been on my mind when i think back wad she told me 2 years ago ? Move on n be happy in future, find someone that will gif me less troubles more happiness... Tat someone will nv appear, i guess.. Even if it appeared, i will nt even accept it or realise it coz i'm too stubborn.. Tat shld be all for 2day, if i haf more to type i will update again.. Gd night to u n her :)

感情很微妙 再多付出也好 再多关心都徒劳