30/11/09

Today marks de end of November 2009 .. Nov is a gd month for me and also a sad n emo month as well.. For the gd part is S.H.E is in town durin nov and also i had alot of fun n realli enjoy myself at my own 21st b'day party ! For de sad part, i guess i do not have to elaborate much abt it.. Tml is de 1st day of dec, hopefully it will be a gd month :)

Anyway yest went up wif Aj bro,jyc and fangan :) It was a nice outing and i love and enjoy gg out with them.. Next outing will be Ichiban Sushi hee :D

既然爱无法均分，那以后就留给你们吧... 容忍的人其实并不笨, 只是宁可对自己残忍.. 到底要我怎么样，到底又希望我能怎么样呢？

我应该分的够狠 你才有借口转身... (我是好人，也是个坏人)

28/11/09

Dang is trying hard not to give herself any hope anymore.. More hope given, more hurts & pain is applied .. The story will be continued..


也许用伤害结束爱才更动人吧 ？你是好人，也是个坏人..

Heal ?

Will it heal ? Completely heal ? I dunnoe ... The sadness is stil dere, nt completely n nt gone yet... Almost everyone dat see me ask me to cheer up as they sae i do look sad ..

3 years back, someone told me dat she is nt tat type of girls that i''ll like n i did nt realli think much abt dat coz at tat point of time, i seriously like her alot.. Maybe they're right from de start... To me nw everything is juz like a dream, it seems like i have it but in de end i dun.. It's a beautful dream dat i wish i'll nv wake up from dere.. No more happiness or happy moment left, it's all gone..

I noe eventually one fine day it will heal, slowly heal.. Morning when i was awake my pillow was wet, my tears still roll down before i slept... It was realli a cold mornin when i was gg to work, everywhere seems soo quiet.. I close my eyes n sleep on de bus to work, i was really tired.. I did nt give my best at work 2day, i haf no mood but stil i tried to give my best.. Thank Eunice for listenin to wad i have to say n also makin me laugh as well.. Thank Ju n Oon for listenin to me as well..

Silly dang is forever soo silly n foolish.. Silly dang wan to sleep nw, eye closing soon.. gd night !

On and on the pain goes on and I just dunnoe hw to cope ?

21/11/09

I will not be the orginial me tis few days, maybe nt de Dang u guys noe.. I wil nt be soo hyper tis few days.. I'm nt good at all, i'm all mess up again.. I am so foolish n stubborn.. My tears roll down n i can't control, i noe i should not be like tis again.. But i seriously cannot control it, i feel very worse nw.. I dunnoe hw to hide anymore, tears juz keep rolling down.. I'm sorry friends, if i let u guys worried abt me..

你应该很幸福和快乐吧 ？ You said that I should not always just think for others, i should also think for myself... I seriously dunnoe hw am i gg to work tml ? Maybe i wil nt be similing as much, and i will nt be in a gd state to serve guest too..

Physically n Mentally tired.. I'm tired, bye

:(

This will be an Emo post once again .. Receive an sms from her askin whether am i free to meet tml ? It seem that i gt to be happy but I am nt.. As I'm workin tml n have meetin after work so i told her no.. But she sae meet after my meetin juz for awhile as she wil nt be free from tml onwards.. So i gt no choice but to meet.. This is nt wad i want, but i have no choice n can't choose at all ..

This may be the last time we gonna meet, i dunnoe y but i just gt tis feeling.. Thing aren't as well as last time anymore, i knew it all along but i thought it would nt be so worse like nw.. Maybe this seems like an cycle, I think n think n think and i try n try n try & in de end I fail.. Well, I'm stubborn, always stubborn.. This is de onli place for me to be emo as FB my sis, cousin all are in, i can't realli do much thing dere.. I guess & belief nt much ppl noe this blog so juz let me be emo here..

Juz nw was talkin to Ju online, i told her almost everything abt it.. She told me it take time, so i should lead my own life and slowly forget abt her.. I had been tryin to do so but everytime i walk pass 1 area or juz see something i think of her.. I pass by bukit batok, bukit gombak i think of her, i walk pass tis particular shop i think of her, i use my mickey cup it remind me of her again.. IF i gonna sae i dun feel anything when she told me she can't make it for my party on 7th nov, i am obiviously lying to u.. All along i dun realli like to have b'day celebration but as tis time is my 21st and i would like to use tis opportunity to haf a party so that could invite her and so call spend or celebrate my b'day wif her but in de end ...

就算叙述了在多的疲累和压力及情绪都显的太多余。。 这些都在告诉我，现在的我看起来是多么的脆弱。。 不知道的还以为又发生了什么事，知道的想说这事情应该还会在发生。。从头到尾最清楚的唯一证人，被问起时，只剩微笑或沉默。。振作吧，好吗？

一个人安静的..

I Dunnoe y i like tis pic alot.. It seems very special :) For me i feel that the drawin seems to be cryin n it is all alone by itself ..

That all for 2night.. Maybe more emo post to be up soon.. Byee n gd night to u n her :)

轻微着痛着，轻微地舍不得。。

16/11/09

Recently thing had been the same.. Still i'm soon tired esp mon after water-based lesson and then training again.. I am like soo dead tired de following day.. But anyway lesson and sch had been okay and maybe kind of fun as well..

And i alreadi gt myself an new wallet from NUM :) Quite happy with the wallet.. B'day is the same nth much, nth much for me to think abt as well.. everything stay de same..

就算面無表情還是會有痛覺的不是嗎? 但這些東西根本沒人懂.. 我太累了，但這樣的累也糟到拋棄.. 看得太透徹了，這更殘忍.. 那些關於我的，也已經在也不關我的事情了..
我早就知道也改變不了甚麼，所以不想再懷抱希望讓自己受傷.. 反正不管怎麼難過怎麼開心一天都會過去.. 反正到最後結果都已經成形了，那就這樣吧...

That all for today.. Feel kind of tired n i gonna play my cookin mama 3 nw :) Gd night to u n her :)

我以为说忘记就忘记，多么洒脱容易

At last

Actually i'm quite lazy to blog n post but i think i shld come here n post smth.. Okay anyway my dear Laopo S.H.E had alreadi left sg like 4 days ago haaa.. Love them to de max haa.. anyway foto are upload at FB, too many foto for me post le.. I shall just post some of it and ella draw me an heart hahahah :D


B'day celebration last sat was great :) All my fren,buddies, relative is dere to celebrate wif me.. Julin n Jiemin came, they suprise me again and i belief everything they sae again!! Everytime kanna bluff by them de ehhh haa.. N AJ bro manage to came early, i was like ehh hw cum she is dere at 6 plus coz b4 that she told me she gt to work.. But it great to see all of them are there :) Receive lots of present as well, pic are up at FB as well :)

2 more days and it will be de actual day of my b'day.. Wishes will be the same again, I realli hope from 3 years back till nw the wishes did came true :) It's a very simple wishes that i had, hopefully it did came true everytime i wish it :) Soo that shld all for today, gd night to u n her :)

你送的礼物 在此刻好体贴陪我回忆 把过往走一遍

Laopo !!!

The pic show n sae everything !! They're in town :)) Super happy to see them, tml is another day for me to see them :)) Byee and will upload more pic when i'm freeeee

Gd night to u n her :D

6/11/09

Today i give sch a skipped !! Decide not to go to sch for lesson 2day, soo boring and also my dear laopo S.H.E is in town alreadi woolalala.. Later on meetin bestie pearline to go ION to see them as ltr 4pm they havin an press conference for de OSIM product :)) And tml will be at causeway for the auto-session for the book itself hee..

Tml night will also be an happy events for me ? I guess shld be ba haa coz it my 21st b'day party ... Everything shld be fine tml i guess haaa.. Yest went n get the decoration stuff at bugis and also ordered my balloons !! GREEN, PURPLE, YELLOW :))

There is a period of time whenever i hear my ipod or ppl playing 触电, i will press next for my ipod if nt i will just plug my ear pieces and listen to my own songs.. It nt tat i dun like tis songs but whenever i listen to that songs it make me think back of those memories like what de lyrics say: 明明是昨天的事情 怎么今天我还在经历 一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地。。The reason i wanna meet u is to sit down, chit-chat and have dinner with u, the rest is not important at all to me.. 我不需要什么生日礼物，那对我来说一点也不重要，我只想跟你坐下来好好的跟你吃一顿饭。。 就这么简单可以吗 ？

當我開始發現做了這麼多事情之後並不是為了我自己，而是為了抵抗或是掩蓋某些不堪的爆發而轉移再轉移，逃的這麼遠現在卻甚麼也看不見了。。有人負責傷害，就一定会有人負責受傷.. 那負責受傷的就是要負責讓自己面對 讓自己哭 讓自己痊癒 讓自己好過。。这一点也不好过。。

That shld all for 2day, gonna get ready to go out n pack my stuff for tml as well.. Byee & hope u n her have a gd day ahead :)

终于沉默代替我们 就像风吹来云飘走了

4/11/09

I gt nth to blog anyway but juz feel like cumin here to type smth.. And to share dat i gt my 1st b'day pressie from Celine cousin's & Hubby, Pauline Cousin, Auntie, Sis n her BF.. It a canon camera that i wanted and my b'day cake on my party tis sat :)

Mon went to NUH to visit my 1st aunt, glad to see dat she is much more better and hopefully she can be discharged soon.. N my younger cousin Mr Anthony get into an bike accident, went n see him too.. Luckly he was okay and nth much serious.. He gt abrasion, 1 open wound on his leg and he fractured his right arms.. Hopefully after this accident, he will be more obedient n listen to my 2nd uncle n auntie..

無法停止的好好沈澱所有思緒，喘不過氣後還是不停的抑制.. 多令人無奈的結果，在我身旁的平靜已經不真實了，我不想再靠近了。。。就先安全的待在這吧，繼續等待。。


That all for today, kind of tired and feel soo sleepy nw.. Tml gt trainin hais, dun realli feel like gg coz i feel very tired :( Byee n gd night to u n her :)

时间的伤 翻云覆雨了什么从我手中 夺走了什么