16/11/10

Updates will be made soon :) Recently been busy wif stuff :) PEACE

有時候

有時候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人說話，只想一個人靜靜的發呆。有時候，突然覺得心情煩躁，看什麼都覺得不舒服，心裏悶的發慌，拼命想尋找一個出口。有時候，發現身邊的人都不瞭解自己，面對著身邊的人，突然覺得說不出話。有時候，感覺自己與世界格格不入，曾經一直堅持的東西一夜間面目全非。有時候，突然很想逃離現在的生活，想不顧一切收拾自己簡單的行李去流浪。有時候，別人突然對你說，我覺得你變了，然後自己開始百感交集。有時候，希望時間為自己停下，做完己還沒來得及做的事情。有時候，想一個人躲起來脆弱， 不願別人看到自己的傷口。有時候，突然很想哭，卻難過的哭不出來。有時候，夜深人靜，突然覺得不是睡不著，而是固執地不想睡。

有時候，走過熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一個人的臉。有時候，明明自己心裏有很多話要說，卻不知道怎樣表達。有時候，覺得自己擁有著整個世界，一瞬間卻又覺得自己其實一無所有。真的只是有時候，明明自己身邊很多朋友，卻依然覺得孤單。有時候，很想放縱自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里的發一次瘋。

有時候，突然找不到自己，把自己丟的無影無蹤。有時候，心裏突然冒出一種厭倦的情緒，覺得自己很累很累。有時候，看不到自己未來的樣子，迷茫的不知所措。有時候，發現自己一夜之間長大了。
有時候，聽到一首歌，就會突然想起一個人。有時候，希望能找個人好好疼愛自己，渴望一種安全感。可當那個可以疼你的人出現的時候，你卻偏執地退隱。有時候，別人誤解了自己有口無心的一句話，心裏鬱悶的發慌。

有時候，被別人傷害，嘴上講沒事，其實心裏難過的要死。有時候，常常在回憶裏掙扎，有很多過去無法釋懷。有時候，很容易感動別人的關懷，有時候卻麻木的像個笨蛋。有時候，看著時間一點點流逝，任憑歎息，自己卻無能為力。

其實，有時候，真的會想這麼多。跟朋友裝沉默，跟陌生人講心裏話。對於在乎你的，不想讓他們擔心，有時候，沒有消息就是一種好消息。其實，很想說“我很好”，或許是昧著心說謊，也只是想把最燦爛的一面，

丟了自己，要記得撿回來。

27/9/10

我不知道現在的心情是什麼...

總是隔了很久才打日記總是隔了許久才領悟某些事情，我們總是隔了很久以後才記得該去喜歡自己.. 想把自己關起來一陣子去沈澱一下最近的喜歡和不喜歡..

沒什麼事情要特別去做，只是想著有沒有機會去牽起某雙手.. 好像對於這世界又感到冷漠了，這極端的性格.. 簡單的過其實很困難，像是快樂是種感覺卻很難去達到

我不要你走 我不想放手 却又不能够奢求 同情的温柔 你可以自由 我愿意承受 把昨天 留给我

爱情 ?

若不是因为爱着你 怎么会夜深还没睡意
每个念头都关於你我想你想你好想你

若不是因为爱着你 怎会有不安的情绪
每个莫名的日子里我想你想你好想你

爱是折磨人的东西却又舍不得这样放弃
不停揣测你的心里可有我姓名

爱是我唯一的秘密让人心碎却又着迷
无论是用什么言语只会(只会)思念你

若不是因为爱着你 怎会不经意就叹息
有种不完整的心情爱你爱你(爱着你)

3/9/10

I dunnoe wad's wrong with me.. Out of sudden, i feel soo empty.. My heart seems so empty.. I dun like tis feeling.. I have no mood to do anything and i just wan to talk to someone right now, or i just need some accompany.. I start to miss her already, i need time again to be back to normal.. I know she had reach hm alreadi, and i also hope she could online soon..

走不過的就停擺在那裏，逃不過的又不認命只想輸給自己卻贏不了自己。當你看著眼前的無底洞許久只會越感好奇隨時都會往下墜，而你又怪誰? 我們一直在人生中尋找太多答案，而當我們要到了這些所謂的答案，是妳想聽見的看見的嗎? 還是結局是哭喪著臉笑自己這些年來這麼愚蠢可悲的盲目追求那些自找麻煩的枷鎖，卻是早已是分裂成灰的結。

怕過於轟烈嗎?還是過度沉靜?

30/8/10

Days are getting realli lesser n lesser each days.. She'll be headin back to tw in 5 days time.. At 1st was 2 days in sg but nw it extend to another 8 days more.. I do have more time to spend wif her and bring her ard n i'm even more glad that my dad sae he want to treat her n cash for dinner.. Coz it create another chance for me to be wif her..

There is good and bad when she stay longer in sg.. Good thing is I'll be able to spend more time wif her, bad thing is when she leave sg it'll be hard for me as those moments spend are too much.. Her flight is on fri morning 7am and i guess she will be at the airport at 5am, mostly i will be sending her and i guess i will be stayin overnight at the airport on thur night.. In this case, i'll be on time to send her off.. I guess my mood will drop totally when she leave that day, sorry if i get real moody ! After she leave, weekends i throw myself back to work.. This is the same old way to keep myself busy again .. I dunnoe hw to describe my feelin toward her, the feeling towards her is not like the same feelin toward Nee.. But to me she is still important but the feelin is just diff.. If nee is 1st, i guess she will be 2nd..

LuLu @ Sentosa wif Merlion

Next will be Cash

Luckly she dun have my blog link and pray she will nv have it coz all this stuff are nt meant for her to see.. I stil wanna be in contact wif her and dun wanna lose her..

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱

24/8/10

寂寞寂寞就好

還是原來那個我 不過撂掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會換這張臉應對笑容
不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯 早點認錯 早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉 我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你又改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼 什麼都沒有 早點看破 才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的 我總會把你戒掉

28/7/10

Days are gettin lesser each days.. I left wif 2 more days at work.. Bth weekends off, so i will enjoy my off day from sat all de way till 6th aug.. Yest went down-hill wif lulu and kaze for steamboat dinner.. Good dinner and great chat ! I wan more gatherin wif OBT peepo like 小妞，小琪，小眼，kai ning, LuLu,小柚 and more to list.. Yest manage to gif 小眼 a belated b'day surprise :)) Yest did a presentation for OBT staff and i did kind of hold back the thing i wanna sae, as i noe once i sae all out, i wil be emotional and that it...

Recently follow quite a few days of program for 静修女中, it's a gal sch.. Before i follow the program, some of my colleagues told me quite alot of them are abit bimbo ! Some of them are abit bimbo and there are some that are quite pretty n sweet too hahaha.. And when they noe or hear from someone that i'm actually not Taiwanese and i'm from Singapore, all of them just like come to me and: Ah dang 你是新加坡人啊？And then they will continue to ask n ask.. Today 1 of them even ask me: Do singapore haf handsome guys ? Hahaha.. Today when we are doing 1 activities like giving everyone a hi 5 or say thank to each other, lots of them are like Ah dang ah dang and they hi 5 till damn high.. I was like abit shocked coz they soo high.. When they are about to leave, for those that will in my group came n ask me ah dang可以跟你拍照吗？I'm like:可以阿.. Some of them ask for my msn n FB and 1 even ask me for my phone no ? I'm like phone no ?? In de end, i gif msn n my FB name coz phone no, abit weird ahh for me haa.. B4 they leave, 1 gal came n ask me ah dang：可以拍你吗？ I'm like: 拍我？ And she sae ya, can i haf ur individual pic? I'm like ohh okay can.. Feel kind of weird when she ask me that haaa.. And when they leave usually all of us will stand near the door n sae bye to them and i did that too, for today all of them came to me and like ah dang ah dang bye bye and all gif me hi 5 or hi 10 again ! Out of sudden i feel like i'm like star hahaha.. All of them are very 热情 and i do enjoy the lesson today and last week alot :) Tml wil be my last day of followin program, may it be a great wan :))

Yest i guess i do smth silly again when i went out wif her.. Yest when we will crossing the road, she drop something on the road and it roll into the middle of the road, and when i saw that i straight away went out and pick up the stuff for her and I did not even think twice whether is there any car or wad ? When she saw me went out to pick her stuff, she shouted ah dang(AD) 小心车！And when i pass her the stuff, she was like 你要小心啦，有车！I'm like 没关系 :) Yest I bought 1 small bottle and she asked me: why u buy this bottle or container? I'm like ohhh i intend to put stuff.. And i bought it coz i wanna put stuff and gif it to her b4 i leave.. She also ask me: so did u use ur material to make card that u bought that time ? I'm like ohhh stil doing and actually i alreadi make hers le.. And she sae next yr she wil come sg :)

Days r super near but stil pray for me that everything will go smoothly for the few days i left here :))

哭了又哭，想了又想 看了又看 聽了又聽 說了又說, 最後還是輸給了自己..

15/7/10

Times flies again, nw it is alreadi 15th of july.. Currently i onli left like 16 more days to end of july as i will stop workin by end of july and de rest will be my off day.. The days are like near for me to head back to sg but I have a confuse feeling.. The feeling is soo weird, basically it's just confuse !

Yest went to a night-market but i dunnoe where is it hahaha.. Coz it is zhao hui dat bring me,Lulu and 2 of the america interns.. I bought a cap at the night market too and i like it & LOVE it hahahaha..

Yest night was a gd night for me too.. Manage to chat wif her and get to noe stuff like wad is the 1st impression that i give her n more.. She told me that the 1st time she saw me at de hostel in the room, she felt that i was unfriendly & cool and i give ppl de feelin that dun come and disturb me.. N she sae actually she intend or thinking to come like sae hi or chat wif me but i was like playin wif my NDS n i'm like cool & unfriendly again ! When she told me yest i'm like hahaha serious ah ? Dan she sae yesh, u're like soo unfriendly n cool cool ! I told her, tis is nt the 1st time ppl sae dat.. Dan the 2nd time when we met at de kayakin events, she felt diff as i volunteer to kayak wif her when i noe dat no one like wan to kayak wif her and she sae i was more friendly and nt soo cool anymore.. And till then de whole impression just change hahaha.. And she sae at the kayakin events, i was the 2nd person that make her feel warm or warm-hearted :)

After the nightmarket, we went back to office to get our stuff.. And bth of us walk back to hostel together, and bth of us chat again.. I was glad dat we kind of chat abt lots of stuff, and the feeling is gd.. Told alicia regardin some other stuff too.. B4 i leave i will get her some stuff and i also get some stuff to make like small cards too :)

Tml onwards to sun, i wil not be able to online as i will be helpin out in an 3days 2 night camp ! Maybe sun i might online, if not then have to wait till mon alreadi.. I guess that shld be all for today.. Stil pray for me that everything wil go smoothly :) Byee peepo and wil try to blog more :)

心臟是一座有兩間臥室的房子。一間住著痛苦，另一間住著歡樂。人不能笑得太響，否則笑聲會吵醒隔壁房間的痛苦..

4/7/10

It already July ! So it means i onli left wif 1 months..Very soon i wil be back hm, back to where i belong ever since i was born hahaha.. I had been doin well over here, thing had been doing quite well for me.. Get to noe alot of gd frens and great colleagues like: LuLu, 小眼，Kai Ning, 小妞，小琪 and more.. No matter whether is it in office,during program or after work, it is always so nice..

I noe dat when i leave, for sure I will miss them all alot but there is 1 particular person that i will realli miss her.. I guess even if i'm back at sg i will stil miss her for certain period of time.. Even though bth of us just get to noe each other for 2 weeks but bth of us get along well like as if we noe each other for mths.. Hmm, i guess when back to sg, i need time to adjust back everything, maybe including her too.. I'm nt sure will i keep visiting taiwan becoz of her or will i work n work just to save more $ in order to go taiwan to visit her n all.. I dunnoe and i haf no ideas of it, thing are just hard to predict but i noe that i still do wanna keep in contact wif her n of coz those OBT staff like 小眼，Kai Ning, 小妞，小琪..

3 of us trying to pose or advertise for our food & Drinks !

LuLu wif all those cream all over her face n credit to me :p

Smile :)

Well, i guess it shld be all for today.. Wil try to blog and update more soon :) Stil pray for me dat everything wil be smoothly :) Byee peepo !

其实很简单, 其实很自然

29/6/10

Just 1 more days n it wil be end of june and start of july and I left wif ard 37 days at taiwan.. I been lookin forward for the days to come as i realli miss sg alot.. Miss my fren, my family and everything :) I noe i wil be as busy like last time when i head back sg, and my life wil be de same like juz netball, sch n work and of coz hang out wif all my dear fren..

Yest whole day in office, and 2 meetin to attend.. Office is fun as i keep disturb n play wif xiao qi n xiao niu.. Bth of them juz joker n damn funny, if office without them wil be boring coz no one for me to disturb hahahaha.. And all of us plan 1 day to go out together to eat n haf fun :)

Recently get to noe someone, and kind of told bro abt it.. I dunnoe hw to sae de feelin towards her, I wil nt sae i like her but i would like or hope to noe more abt her n all.. The way bth of us get to noe each other it kind of funny i guess esp the 1st time we met each other n i dun rem it at all hahahaha.. Some of my fren alreadi noe like hw i get to noe her n all le but i dun wish to type it here .. Yest went out wif OBT staff for Ktvin session and it great ! She went as well and bth of us went together in a same car.. We also chat abt stuff and bth of us gt a bet.. Next yr wil be de deadline of the bet hahahaha.. N wil ask my mum to help me to get smth from sg dan i pass it to her :)

Currently right nw, i wil nt do anything.. Juz be fren, it good that i had a overseas fren :) I just left wif ard 37 days in taiwan and i guess it would be hard for me if i realli fall for her as i wil nt have much time to like spend wif her or ask her out, and i guess I wil be more emo when i head back to sg if i realli go all de way out for her, so rather be fren ba . & next time when i go taiwan, can look for her and keep in contact :) It would be better tis way !


也许你不是我的 爱你却又该割舍 但它也可能是我们的缘分

21/6/10

Time realli pass very fast and nw de dates is alreadi 21st june and it means i left wif less dan 50 days and i will be gg back to sg.. Juz finish europe sch camp on fri and i went to extend my visa on fri morning, afternoon head to Long men to help out an kayakin event held by OBT.. On fri night get to slp at ard 11 plus and i gt to wake up at 5.30am the followin day.. I am soo tired for the past few days, lack of slp n tired ! On 16 and 17th i onli get to slp ard ard 12 plus or 1 plus n followin day nid to wake up early again.. Yest was my off day so i slp till 10 plus but i guess stil nt enough coz i'm stil tired nw hahahaha..

More program for me to attend n busy days for me.. Nw in mind i gt alot of stuff to buy, like all those shirts, shoes n cap n all.. Chat wif meishi yest, and surprisingly coach stil rem me and ask abt me like when am i cumin back n all.. N RP nball team r gg for Malaysia for some competition on 2nd aug and coach wanna put me in the name list if i'm back, another surprise again ! I ask meishi, nw the team nt enough player ah, hw cum wanna put me in the name-list and meishi told me it SECRET ! haaaa.. But i guess, i will still go back for trainin n all when i'm back durin aug .. So i wil stil be as busy like last time, nt much changes hahaha..

Still count down for me peepo, even though day r near but still count down n pray for me that everything will be smoothly :) Miss ya peepo :)

可不可以 买你的不快乐 只是想陪你吃饭 看你笑笑 听你最近 好不好

7/6/10

Currently nw at Long Tan office.. Back here for almost a week alreadi, everything here stil de same.. Work is okay, helping out programs, packing stuff and doin some office job haaa.. 16 to 18 i wil be away for 3 days camp, it will be a Europe sch camp... I guess i can speak english again hahaha.. Miss speaking english at some point of time haa.. Tml wil help out an program as well, hope weather will be gd n everything wil be smooth as well...

More work n programs for me to do and follow, it means i wil be more busy n time wil pass faster ! hahaha.. That de main thing that i like the most and i guess all my fren like it too.. Soo many stuff is waitin for me durin aug, can't wait to go back sg :)

Feel glad n happie that stil manage to FB her and she stil reply n all.. Currently i also dunnoe wad i wil do or wad but juz hope that currently nw thing stil can maintain like wad it is nw.. :)

That shld be all for nw, wil try to blog more if possible :) Stil pray and countdown for me :)

我没有任何防备　没方向到处地追

31/5/10

Last day of May, and last day at hua lian too.. Tml wil be headin back to Long tan head-quarters.. I noe i wil miss workin at hua lian & miss de ppl here.. Colleagues here r all very nice n funny, sometime they realli like entertain me durin workin hours dat make work nt soo boring :) I can stil rem on 27th may when we havin our steamboat at night, it was very fun and i was very full too becoz xiao le n rest keep place food in my bowl and keep sae: 新加坡来的要吃多一点啦 ! N after eatin we also play some game n Jun chen lost ard 3 times and his punishment is 弹额头 ! Everything end ard 1.30am n i was so full dat i could nt realli slp n followin day i am mornin shift ! But it was a fun day :)

Yest i call home, talk to mum for ard 20 minutes.. Mum told me abt their planning to come taiwan n all, and of coz i told her how she could plan their days in taiwan so that i would be able to head to taipei to find them all this.. Hopefully mum, sis, ah yi n maybe dad will be able to come durin aug :) N mum told me dat they might make a new cupboard for me and she told me roughly how de design would be n told her roughly wad i wan also.. N when de price is okay n there wil be slight changes for my room .. Also asked hw everything at hm n my relative, manage to hear some gd n bad news but well hope everything wil be fine for my loves wan :)

Surprisingly today i receive a msg at FB ! I was kind of shock when i see dat but i was realli happie to see dat.. I did like intend to wrote on her Fb wall, but i juz dun dare i guess.. I guess i'm juz afraid of wad might be de reply n all.. Able to receive her msg at fb is realli great n i'm contented :)

That all for 2day, and i wil try to blog more when i'm back at long tan n stil i juz cannot wait for end of july and aug to come :) Stil pls pray for me and hope everything will be smooth and well :)

只要你喜欢 不管有多难 拼了命为你弄来

说了再见

天凉了 雨下了 你走了清楚了 我爱的 遗失了 落叶飘在湖面上睡着了
想要放 放不掉 泪在飘你看看 你看看 不到
我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到

说了再见 才发现再也见不到 我不能就这样失去你的微笑
说了再见 才发现再也见不到 能不能就这 样忍着痛泪不掉

你的笑 你的好 脑海里 一直在绕我的手 忘不了 你手的温度
心碎了一地 捡不回 从前的心跳 身陷过去 我无力逃跑

Dear frens, i'm fine dun worry.. Juz feel that tis's kind of meaningful and i kind of like it dat y i post it.. Dang is nt emoin at taiwan so dun worry hahaha.. :D Continue to pray & count down for me.. :)

Hua Lian

I noe i had nt been bloggin for quite sometime, reason is no time, no idea wad to blog ! Currently nw i am at Hua Lian but soon i wil be back to Long Tan.. Start of June i wil be back at Long Tan and if u happen to count, i had alreadi been at taiwan for soon to 1 mth.. Tat means i left wif ard 2 mths or more to go.. When it is ella b'day i left wif 1 mth plus.. Basically tis is hw i count de days i left here.. Workin at hua lian is okay, nt bad.. The colleagues here r nice n fun, enjoy workin wif them although sometime work can be abit bored as when there is no guest coming in recreational club dat means i haf nth much to do.. So mostly i wil try to find thing to do by askin my colleagues, u nid me to help u think of stuff ? At least by helpin them to think of stuff, make me feel occupied :)

Back to Long tan, i guess more stuff r up for me to do.. But well, there is gd n bad.. Good is at least i haf stuff to do to make me occupied n days wil pass faster, bad is maybe i wil be tired but well, i gonna endure it n soon everything wil end ...

Can't wait to go back to sg soon coz lots of gatherin comin up for me to gather wif my dear frens n of coz my family, my parents, my relative n my dear cousin dog coco :) If i'm nt wrong or wad, by end of july i wil end work, n aug mostly i wil haf ard 4 to 6 days to tour ard taiwan.. But still count down for me n do pray for me dat everything wil go smoothly :)

是自由的吧，縹緲的情感。

Taiwan

Right nw i'm at OBT office doing some blogging n i dunnoe will i be bloggin much ma or ? It depend as well, everything is here is fine and i'm tryin to adapt to thing here.. Hopefully i can adapt soon n thing will be well i guess :)

I wil realli try to online more as internet connection is kind of limited and i had to go to office n do stuff or online as onli office haf internet connection.. Pls Bless & pray for me and i guess thing wil be fine for me :)

I realli look forward to aug to head to home :)

Short & Simple moments (26/4/10)

Thank for the call :) It seriously brighten up my night b4 i slp.. Ard 12 plus, i was gettin ready to slp n all n my fone ring.. Tis ringtone dun ring so often n when I saw it was her, she called.. At dat point i was thinkin, y she call at tis time, is dere anything or wad ? I answer it: n de 1st thing she ask me was: Do u noe who am i ? I was like Huei Nee uh, n she was like hw cum u noe it me.. The reason she ask coz she did nt use her own fone to call, she use her hse fone to call n i guess she forget dat i gt her hse no..

She start askin me haf i pack my stuff n hw everything ? We chat abt other stuff as well.. And ask each other wad r we doing nw n i guess 1 of de thing dat make me like kind of happy is when i ask her wad is she doin nw, she replied: ermm nw chattin wif u lo.. I'm like okokay n like kind of smilin to myself haaa.. Get to noe wad or hw is she doin recently n joke ard as well.. N as usual she like to disturb me wif mickey again..

Even though it was realli like a short chat but it was enough for me.. I nv dream or thought dat she like actually rem dat i leavin soon n she even make an effort to gif me a call n haf a short chat wif me even though she is busy wif her work stuff :)

谢谢(妮) 也许真的只有你能让我觉得很安全吧。。你好像有一种魔力，能让我感到很安心，好像一部分的烦恼都可以被抛到外太空。。 就很像歌词说的一样：当你终于走到我的面前 完成所有的画面 就算苦辣酸甜尝过一遍 只剩喜悦。。

但愿我能对着你说你多独特， 无可取代的你在我心目中..

25/4/10

Nw de dates is 25/4/10, so it means dat i'm leavin soon.. Frankly speakin, i dun feel like leavin n my mind is like totally blank for it..

Juz came back from de 5 days camp n it was fun.. I kind of enjoy de camp n learn lots of thing from de whole camp n instructor Nat :) She is a great instructor and if possible i would wan to learn more thing from her :)

Actually i gt alot of thing to write or type here but i juz dunnoe hw shld i start.. Well, i guess dan forget abt it ba, til i noe hw i wanna start dan i shall come back here again.. My mood is nt tat stable recently, sad to sae..

Treasure n Appreciate it forever (United)

快樂真的可以很簡單不是嗎? 但快樂下一秒也是痛苦, 事情越純粹越好,通常複雜幾乎都是人為的因素,那些簡單快樂的記憶和當下是值得被留念, 被記得, 被收藏和記錄的。我苦笑了，嘴角真的有抽動，臉上真的出現稱得上苦字笑容的那種.

最喜歡，但也最痛

18/4/10

S.H.E concert was great ! I like it to de max and i enjoy it alot alot :) S.H.E is the One 愛而為一新加坡演唱會 赞啦！棒棒棒.. U guys realli missed out smth great if u guys did nt manage to go for it haaa.. Maybe some might feel the prev wan is better or wad, but for me as long is S.H.E concert i will love it and will like those stuff that they tried out :)

Today was another day wif dear laopo as well :) Auto session at PS, there was alot of ppl n it was realli hot & humid !! But stil manage to get their autograph, shake hand n talk to dear laopo ! Manage to chat or talk wif 3 of them and they replied.. Speak to Ella n told her: Ella 辛苦你了，昨晚的演唱会很捧，加油！ Ella replied me: 不会啦，你们也是辛苦了(smile at me) 好，谢谢你，掰掰 she is forever soo nice n sweet :) Selina also did reply n her smile is sweet also but she is also very gentle haa.. Hebe also did reply me n when i wave bye to her, she look at me, smile n wave also :)) Sooo happie, happie, happie :))

In love or in r/s maybe to describe me using a song i tink 爱到疯癫 quite suit me.. 爱到疯癫 苦的酸的无所谓, 爱到疯癫 伤了痛了都没感觉 你要我等你到哪个期限 我都奉陪 你要我再赔上多少尊严 我都奉陪.. Recently i chat wif shrawn regardin like some personal stuff, he told me dat he once wait for 1 gal for like 3 hrs or 4 hrs plus, he was like realli pissed off n kind of annoyed even though dat was de gal dat he like .. I was like ohh but for me waited like 4 hrs or 5 hrs b4 ehh, n i was nt angry or fed up or pissed at all when she come ! Shrawn was like: crazy ah u ! Maybe i realli 爱到疯癫..

Tml will be camp day ! No phone n lappy access :( Sms me if gt impt stuff to tell me, i wil reply on fri evenin when i can use my fone.. If nt juz FB me, i will also check on fri evenin :) Byee peepo n gd night

不肯撕去的昨天 陪着我还在等谁

17/4/10

Today is a special day as 2day will be S.H.E is the One 愛而為一新加坡演唱會 !! I had been waitin for tis for soo long n finally it here ~ Damn excited n super lookin forward to it.. My dear ella, hebe & selina :)))))

Yest was quite great as well ! Unexpected I chat wif J.. Bth of us chat n kind of update each other wif our stuff ! I guess, it shld be a great chat overall :) N next mon to fri, i have no access to my phone at all due to my camp ! Gosh, i hope i will be able to last hahahahaha.. Camp shld be ok for me but de part that i tink no phone, i'm like huh ~ Well dat shld be all for 2day as i'm meetin bestie pearline soon hahahaha.. Woohoo i'm soo excited nw hahahaha !!!

可是 爱就对了 遇到下一个 爱上就爱了痛苦或快乐 都是我的

8/4/10

Recently my mood had not been gd ! I haf no idea y as well, I become very moody at some point of times and my temper get worse as well.. Moody moody moody is all i can sae nw ..

Out of sudden tis person become like so impt to me, like realli impt.. It like my mind is thinkin of her, almost everything is abt her.. I easily get fed up, easily be happy, easily be moody, i guess it coz of her.. Seriously oh gosh, u muz be kiddin me like seriously ! This shld nt be happenin at tis point of time :( I will nt like sae who is she or wad, I guess i wil keep it as secret coz tis realli can't be reveal .. Sorry frens, even though u're my close or best fren i wil nt sae at all due to many reasons .. U guys can guess n guess n asked me abt it but stil i wil nt sae anything to it.. Well, maybe i wil onli sae it to 1 or 2 person juz to share wif them coz at some point of time, i realli could nt take it anymore..

Can 28thapr be far away ? Like be at 28thapr 2011 and nt 2010 !! My mood get even worse when i noe tis date is like soo near, like realli near ! I wan 17th n 18th apr to come soon for my S.H.E but nt 28th apr !! I noe tis shld nt be de way i shld behave or wadeva BUT i'm like seriously ..... It realli affect me in someways, i dunnoe y or like wad causes it ! I noe n guess dat i would be able to adapt to the area over dere but i guess it juz de feelin of leavin all ur loves wan over here for 4 mths, it seems short but u juz haf to tink dat u can't see them in real face to face for like durin de period of time.. Maybe when i'm dere, i dun even haf de time to tink abt all tis thing coz i might be too busy wif stuff or be too tired everyday after work n doing report ! I would wan to enjoy like realli enjoy wif my fren b4 i head for attachment :))

心好空 像没温度的 气球 我的灵魂困在回忆中 动也不能动...

改变 ？

不要想著去改變誰，誰也不會為了誰去改變，你的不同只是應付只是討好短時間有起色，但不長久做爛了會顯得噁心... 每次往前一步都很吃力，同样的每次冷靜一次都消耗很多時间.. 这都够了吧, 应该慢慢的停下来了..

當我們都笑的開心自然就顯得天真無邪，但如果那是你未曾看懂的表情，代表有種悲傷也已經走到末路難以遮掩的程度了, 听起来还蛮可悲的吧 ? 愛 這東西沒有原則，太難掌控太容易失控，像是那些狀況不是我們能預設的了吧 ？痛苦是短暫的，但客觀的說是需要一點時 間去适应一彻的一彻 ...

下雨天太容易往下掉, 太容易胡思亂想, 太容易躲進黑洞, 太容易想念, 太容易感性, 太容易哭泣, 太容易懦弱, 太容易沈默....

來來回回的總是令人特別沮喪，好像先前的都沒有發生過一樣...

27/3/10

My dear blog, i am comin back to u nw.. I guess, u're de only place dat i would come here sae everything when i realli needed and consider i'm nt lazy to type all tis thing out..

I met up wif her 2day :) I noe quite alot of ppl might be thinkin hw come u're meetin her n why ? The reason is juz simple, I wanna met up wif her, have a gd chat, see her, noe hw is she doing n all b4 i leave for attachment.. Maybe alot of ppl are worried abt me meetin her coz it might nt be good to me.. But nt to worry i'm fine, betta dan last time if happen to compare :)

But well, when i was waitin for her my heart beat was like soo fast, i could nt even control it.. But when she reached, i'm like calm.. I'm nt gg to realli sae or elaborate everything here as i noe some ppl haf my blog-link..I dun wan to let others dat r nt close wif me to noe abt thing dat is kind of personal to me.. So i wil update my close fren regardin the whole issue..

I enjoy de whole chattin session and it was a great wan, i realli enjoy every moments of that.. We chat abt lots of thing, maybe get to noe abt each other slightly even more.. I stil could nt figure out why did she ask me that question ? It make me stunned for at least 3 secs b4 i ans dat question.. De more she ask, de more i do not noe hw to ans her haha.. She always surprise me wif stuff dat i nv expect from her.. One of the thing dat make me realli happie n contented is when i pass her an gift dat i buy from jap, she accept it ! She did nt sae no or dun wan.. She accept it but stil gif me de face like wad is it or did u anyhw spend $ again ? I gave her a 平安符 or like may all your wishes come true de 符 for her.. I did nt expect her to like use it straight away, she juz took it out n see and she juz like put or tied it on her phone as like accessories or ... At dat point of time, i realli feel very contented, for me that like enough, it more than enough :) I hope de 符 will realli bless her n may everything she wish come true..

I do not hope or wish for anything and I told myself dat dun think soo much keep 灌输 myself n tell myself dat No No No, stop ! 朋友们，我很好 我没有事！现在的我应该是心满意足了，现在都很好。。谢谢（妮）

谢谢你，完整所有的画面，让一彻都变的甜美，也让一彻都好像只有喜悦 。。

15/3/10

It a mixture feelin again.. Like stuck ! Alittle bit of this n dat, sometime u feel so helpless n it keep bother u when this issue happen n happen again.. It affect everything u do, ur mood n just everything.. It make u soo tired dan u dun wan bother abt it anymore n just wan to put it aside n see hw thing will be by it own ..

Anyway on fri, i met up wif 3 different grps of people.. I went like 3 to 4 places in an day and all is different area.. Afternoon i went to kovan to cut my hair, after that i head to bukit panjang to meet julia to pass her smth n chat wif her awhile, then i head to AMK to meet up wif ah ju n ah oon.. We slack at MOS burger, chat n disturb each other, then after that i head to PS to meetup wif pearline.. Ever area i head to is like far from each, n it took me like at least 1 hr to reach another places like kovan to bukit panjang n then to AMK ! Even my ipod went off on me, when i was at bukit panjang waitin for Julia, it went low batt.. I was like gosh, i stil have another journey to go ehh ! lucky i gt my fone, n sms start to come in as well, enterainment for de journey to AMK hahahah :p

I can sense n feel that, my fren care for me n i realli, seriously appreciate it n of coz glad to have them :) I guess, one of their worries is afraid that i might end up get hurt again.. That 1 of my own worries as well, de feelin is realli bad n worse.. I had been in dere for few times and it took me long to get out of dat.. Recently quite a few of my fren had been tellin me: J look like her, her smile look like her n de feelin is abit dere.. Tis cause me to think is it the reason that make me wanna noe more abt her or ?

I had been tellin myself nt to click on her, refrain from doing that.. Actually wad i can do is delete her away but i dun bear too.. I dunnoe is it that i am too use to see her name poppin out, juz like when my inbox sms are gone, i feel weird n empty coz whenever i went to my inbox, her name always appear as i did nt delete away her sms even though i did nt browse thru it for quite sometime.. Well, nw all de sms is gone, so shall see hw it goes as time passes :)

I have an new name recently: Silly Dang Dang :) Tis wan given by J.. I realise i'll fall in more deep when u use silly on me.. I once fall for it b4 n it real deep, but when it gone, I drop totally

爱究竟有多累 有多美，伤悲的伤悲的很绝对..

12/3/10

I'm back from my japan trip ! 7 days at japan was fun and freezin cold hahaha.. The weather dere was realli cold.. I enjoy the trip alot and i bought alot of thing back, spent all my money hahahaha.. I dunnoe wad to type abt my jap trip le ehh, coz if type dan is like damn freakin long and i'm kind of lazy also hahaha so head my FB to see my pic n video.. Pic is uploaded alreadi, slowly will be up as well

On wed, bro n jiemin came to my hse for dao huey n carrot cake n i wanted to pass them their gift also hahahaha.. It was a fun fun day, we chat n chat n then juz disturb each other.. After that we went to town area to slack, haf coffee, shop ard, had dinner n went movie together.. Ah oon sleep durin de movie and she stil dare to tell me i nv sleep, i onli in de wonderland .. I was like -_-' I enjoy de meetup soo more of that pls hahahah :)

When bro came my hse, she told me smth like u nv go online ah ? I was like no ah, wad happen ? In my heart i was thinkin, what could it be ? In de end i asked her, n i was right.. I seriously did nt expect that ... I was kind of affected at that point of time .. N i noe Bro was kind of worried as well ba, coz i alreadi decided to noe more abt the other person (J) n nw she is like back n this might affect me again ! At this moment, i manage to noe more abt the other person (J)and i was glad dat we manage to chat abt our personal stuff :) I do not wish to think abt any stuff nw, wil juz let thing be de way hw it should be or hw fate wan it to be ? Nth i could change too..

Ltr mostly will be meetin J to pass her stuff, n i enjoy yest chat wif her :) N i will be meetin her soon b4 i leave for my attachment, i dunnoe hw thing will turn out but shall see hw ba !

该怎么办，你不简单 但我就爱。。

2th mar

Okay i'm back to blogging again ! If nt tat ah oon sae my blog like dead liao, no compo lo unlike hers like soo exciting man hahahhaha..

Last fri went out wif alicia,jiemin, julin & aj Bro ! Went marina barrage to picnic n also gif that ah ju surprise hahaha.. The events will created by me :) 1st is wanna luo hei dan in de end i plan everything.. Reason for Marina barrage is, my aj bro always wanted to head there to see see or picnic so that is de reason y it is Marina barrage.. N then in de end we put Julin surprise on dat as well, suppose her another surprise is on sat but she sae she nt free so we put everything on fri instead ! luckly it was a great surprise i guess haa.. Coz julin gt touched touched when she saw de video, cookie cake, OS shirt wif flowers n of coz de bottle of SWEET ! After MB, we went to khatib n get jiemin fav dao huey n then head back to Alicia hse for slackin session.. I tink her place is like de cosy cosy place lo, we like love to slack at her hse hahahaha :)

Marina Barrage Succeed !!

Sat afternoon meetup wif michelle & dawn to bring them to my cousin shop to do spects ! As usual, michelle is late hahahahha :p after dat dawn went off for her church ! Michelle n me head down to AMK to meet mason for lunch, b4 mason reach we went n get KOI milk tea, love it to de max hahaha :) After that we went to pepper lunch and we chat n slack for 3 hrs ! 3 of us juz sit dere n chat n maybe gossip abt ppl ard us hahahaha ! After that michelle went off, n mason n me went down to town to get movie tix.. While waitin for denyse, Shi hui n vincent, we went walkin ard n slack n chat again hahaha :) love those chattin session !

Sun is a day out wif fangan ! Went to national museum to watch the Quest for Immortality - The World of Ancient Egypt ! It was quite interesting coz i am quite interested to noe abt all those stuff hahaha.. Free admission for bth of us coz STUDENT ! Great to be a student beh hahaha :p N i gt 1 pair of new shoes from left foot.. Walk ard, slack n ate some stuff n head to airport to look for bro for la KOPI session :)

Tml i will be flyin off to JAPAN le .. 1 week of enjoy n relax time :) Byee singapore n let welcome JAPAN !! My days had been doing quite gd recently, i realli would like to noe u better :) Soo glad that i'm able to chat wif u b4 i fly off to japan :) I guess slowly i will get to noe u better, everything shall start from frens :)Hopefully able to meet up wif u when i'm back..


当你终于走到我的面前，完整所有的画面 ...

26/2/10

After like ard 10 days, i'm back here bloggin once again.. I did nt mia from my blog, it just dat i'm soo tired to blog or type all those thing down alreadi.. Anyway i had been quite busy recently, busy wif alot of thing like planning for stuff and meetup wif peepo..

I think it shld be time alreadi.. It shld be de time that i shld put down everything and force or convience myself that we can still be fren afterall... Get to noe someone recently and i do not deny that i had feelin for her.. I dunnoe will thing be the same again like last time, after 3 or 4 mths and my feelin go back to her again.. I dun wanna bother anymore, i jus wanna haf fun nw and enjoy myself b4 my attachment come..

Today gonna be a gd day as i am gg marina barrage wif alicia,AJ,julin, jiemin !! Nice combination rite ? All my best n close fren are gathered together, but there are more that could nt make it 2day.. Today gonna be a gd gd day !! I gonna prepare myself nw and also waitin for someone to post de pic that we took yest :)

如果事情可以那么简单就好了。。

16/2/10

After soo long, i receive tis (^-^) again.. I was soo happie when i saw dat as she had nt been sms me wif dat emotions for quite some time.. Even though i was being wake up by de sms but i guess it was worth afterall.. Sometime i realli feel that all tis feelin shld stop, if nt it will go on forever.. I noe dat it will be hard for me to forget abt her as till nw de feelin is stil dere.. That kind of feelin is always dere when there is thing related to her..

I seriously had no idea wad will happen durin de 4 mths when i'm at taiwan .. Wil it stil be de same like nw or it will change again ?

其实我很失落，但我又不想强求。。

12/2/10

I had complete my year 2 at RP, so glad that all UTs are all DONE ! All finish, completed all the UTs in year 2 .. Last paper was yest, it was like HELL ! Stupid EE module, no UT review or revision dan still soo bloody hard .. Almost everyone was stunned when they saw the question, juz imagine de UT onli 1 question n is 20 MARKS !! I was like omg la, if tis question gone dat means the whole UT gone le ehhh... I spend like 10 to 15 min lookin through pre-readin n 6ps.. Luckly manage to find some ans.. Yesh ! Year 2 COMPLETED !!

Juz afew days more n it is CNY n V'day ... Bth nth special to me anyway haaa.. CNY maybe juz angbao for me that all, but almost every yr V'day is nth to me.. Sad rite but i'm used to it alreadi :) 3rd day of CNY, wil be at my hse :) Fren cumin for mahjong session n gatherin :D

At de moment, i get to rest for 2 mths but i dun tink i will be able to rest for 2 mths coz workin n netball is cuming and i nid to go back to sch to do some stuff for my IIP thingyy.. Lookin forward to mar as i'm gg overseas soon :) Gonna enjoy myself to de max :) Shop n shop n shop..

什么都好，别静下来就好。。 什么都好，让我找得到事情塞满时间就好。。什么都好，不要让我发现自己其实有多想你就好。。

从 ？

一切都从遇见你，认识你，喜欢你，爱上你。。都从这一切慢慢的开始 。。

第一波：遇见你 ..
地点：动物园
日期：2006 年 3 月

第二波: 认识你
地点：动物园/夜间动物园
日期：2006 年 4 月

第三波：喜欢你
地点：莫名
日期：不知不觉 ..

第四波：爱上你
地点：莫名
日期：不知不觉

我能从头的遇见你，认识你，喜欢你，爱上你吗 ？ 一切都从头来过 好吗 ？

晚安咯。。累了！

偶尔 ？

如果爱是一场骇然的梦魇， 哪我们何必去体会呢 ？生而成人的过程不是早已经被折磨了吗， 为何还要执著那些令人想到就心酸碰到就疼痛的人呢 ？ 尽管用力的敲打自己的脑袋或做任何事，都还是无法敵过真正醒来崩溃后综合着交错着泪水与无力。。

虽然 "它" 只是一场不真实的梦，但它却在脑海里忽明忽灭。。偶尔会一点点痛，偶尔也会血流不止。。

3/2/10

She come and go just like this.. Before i could do anything, she is gone.. Guess wad, i did silly stuff again.. She came online, i saw n i click on her but she went offline again, it happen like for twice.. My mood totally gone, and that de reason y i am blogging... After a while, she came online again and no more offline le.. I did de same old thing like i always did again, click on her,look on her dp n hope to see hw've she been and just leave the window dere without typin anything..

Why is it everytime when there is thing related to her, i will be like tis ? I'm happie to see her online coz i had nt been seein her online for quite sometime alreadi.. I guess i wil nt be sleepin so soon for 2night ..

能够遇见你 认识你 喜欢你 爱上你 感谢我每滴眼泪 ...

1/2/10

Today is 1st feb and is someone b'day.. Someone dat i will nv forget abt her b'day and no matter wad happen i will still wish her :) Happie B'day to u - 妮。。 祝你生日快乐，永远都幸福快乐，

Yest after i sms her, i couldn't sleep.. I worried whether wil she replied or not if she reply what wil de sms be like ? In de end i switch it to silent mode.. She did replied, i was glad :) I managed to sleep through de next morning.. I wished her almost at every area, my FB, msn and here.. I wan her to receive all de wishes on her special day.. Ever since de day i noe her and when it's her b'day, i told myself dat i wil wan to be de 1st and de last wan to wish her.. Soo i wil send her a sms when it is 12 am n i wil send 1 sms to her when it is 11.59pm.. I did it for de past 3 years but de 4th years i wil nt do it.. I once told her, durin ur b'day i confirm wil sing u a b'day songs n i did nt manage to do it for de past 2 years as once i was sick n i was havin a bad sore throat, last yr i did nt get to meet her so i send her b'day songs through sms and i told her tis is nt de live wan but next time i will sing de live wan for u .. i guess, i had no chance to do it anymore..

I will be gg taiwan for my attachment in apr.. 4 mths away and in taiwan workin.. I shld be happy rite ? But i am nt, i dunnoe y.. But dere is nth i can do nw.. that all, nitex nitex :)

* Happie B'day to u, happie b'day to u, happie b'day happie b'day, happie b'day to u :) 生日快乐- 妮 ~

28/1/10

Okay, recently i had been very lazy to come type anything here.. Tis week had been turnin in late n wakin up early.. Soo tired n shag! Kayakin n kayak, it tirin but it fun though... Sat will be workin n after work party at the zoo ! Sun will be outin wif ah ju n ah oon :) Gonna shop n get stuff and RELAX :)

The days are near, and it's bothering me.. I dunnoe whether shld i anot ? I'm so afraid that i will receive another sms that make me down another few weeks.. I just wanna do smth that i had been doin it ever since i noe u, pls gif me a chance to continue doin it.. It doesn't matter even if u do not reply, just dun stop me from doin that or asked me dun do it anymore.. Yes, i admit i get to noe more ppl and maybe 1 or 2 may have attracted me but the feelin is totally diff.. After so long, no one did gif me dat feelin..

I gt to slp soon n my eye is closing soon, tml will be another day again.. Nitex nitex :)

对你好，为你痛， 你却说全都没有..

21/01/10

Okay i'm here to update alreadi.. Quite a handful of thing happen tis few days .. Be it good or bad, it happened anyway.. 1 of the worries dat i had kind of put down is my attachment thingy, it shld be solved and i will be able to do my thing b4 i go for attachment :) Another worries is my sis, she fell yest n hurt herself.. So nw she is at SGH n tml she will be gg operation for her shoulder or hand, hopefully after de ops her hand will be fine and she will be able to move freely :) My mum had also been very tired tis few days as she gt to head to hospital in de mornin and then back to home to do some home stuff and then head back to hospital again.. Yest went to see my sis and could see dat she is in pain as she couldn't realli move her hand.. Tml will head down to see her after sch again, hopefully..

Just nw went to have steamboat wif edmund n peeps, finally get to meet him.. Actually didn't plan to go as my sis is in hospital but luckly she is fine so i went to meet them.. Chat wif him regardin some stuff and as usual we chat abt our own stuff n happen to chat abt her again.. Edmund told me, forget abt it ba and dun think too much abt it anymore.. If possible dun wish or sms her durin her b'day too.. 2 ppl had told me de same thing alreadi n that is not to sms her durin her b'day, no nid to wish her le.. For myself, i plan to sms n wish her as usual.. I still will sms her, as a fren wishin her happy birthday, that all :)

你面无表情的嘴角 像在嘲笑我的胡闹。。我告诉自己习惯就好，习惯就好 。。我还在等一个人 在等我得永恒 告诉我爱别担心别害怕。。

就这样了。。 晚安咯 ！

15/1/10

Tml will be water based practical UT, wish me gd luck man esp on capsized drills ! Feel soo relieved after 2day sports business UT, finally all theory UT 2 all finish :) Tml after UT will be out wif best pal pearline :) Gonna enjoy myself to de max.. Recently no mood to do anything, no mood to do ppt and think for ideas, engine realli down.. Maybe is i've been focusin and work hard for de first 10 weeks n nw no more energy for the rest of 5 weeks le.. Totaly drain out :(

我怎么一夜之间被打垮了 狼狈 沉默 放空 泪光 心痛。。 我不能跟朋友说 因为你做的事会有可能让他们觉得你是坏的。。找新的爱伪装幸福 却装得更寂寞。。

Bye, gt to slp soon as tml gt to wake up early for kayakin thingy :) Gd night then ..

找不到人说 心里的寂寞..

12/1/10

I gt a feelin, it might be a long post.. Okay, i'm realli burnt after yest kayakin session.. It fun to kayak in the sea :) After the kayakin ard 10 of us went airport to have popeyes and also walk ard at t3, i also get my gummy bear at candy empire, OMG i'm soo addicted to it hahahaha.. I like hangin out wif my class-mates, they're a bunch of fun ppl and they usually make me laugh like nobody business :D

Tis cumin thur i will noe my result for my IIP attachment.. And i will get to know whether wil i be attach in sg or overseas.. If i'm realli gg overseas attachment, then i will be away for ard 4 to 6 months.. 4 to 6 months away from home, from my friends and family..

If i'm realli gg overseas attachment, i realli hope i can meet her b4 i leave.. I noe it will be highly impossible but stil i do hope soo.. I miss her, i realli want to know hw is she doing nw ? Is she doing well ? Nw i have no idea wad is she doin nw, I have no news abt her.. I noe that i'm suppose to forget abt her and i shld nt be typin all tis over here but i juz can't forget abt her, everywhere i go i think of her, everything i do remind me of her.. Everyday i pass by bukit batok or gombak when i go to sch n go to work.. I go to work, it remind me of her, I go night safari it remind me of her again.. I go westmall,marina sq,vivo city,lot 1, it remind me of her again.. Everytime after trainin from sch when i was takin train back hm, i will usually head to the 1st cabin n try my luck will i able to see her ? Everytime i will tell myself :forget it, she will nt take train anymore.. Someone will drive her anywhere she wanna go now.. When i go for competition, it remind me of her again.. It remind me of those sms she use to send me when i have match, it remind me of that she is always nt down when she told me she will come n support me...

So what i found someone that i admire or feel that she is my eye candy ? It does nt mean anything, they are still nt what i wanted, the feelin is different.. Maybe by gg overseas for 4 to 6 months will gif me a chance to forget abt everything..

我没有你们想象中的那么坚强。。也许是因为被伤了很深，所以在也不想再认真了。。认真了，过后得到的却是一身的伤，伤了却又没有办法恢复。。温柔好浓，记忆里浮现你的面容，心还跳动 却没重逢。。

I'll try to learn to forget and continue my daily lifestyle as usual.. I will try to put everything behind..

一个人在夜里继续的奔跑，却发现在也听不到自己的心跳。。

5/1/10

1st post of 2010.. I shall start with 3rd of jan (sun), i suppose to work till 6.45pm but as i'm nt feeling very well and also dere is nt much guest so i request to go off early.. okay i suppose to go off at 3pm but in de end i went down to the office wif the WDs (Julia,Pat,Michelle,Dawn) as they also finish work at 3pm too.. In de end i did nt went hm, i went AMK wif them instead hahahaa.. When i was boardin 138, dawn was like: But u're sick ! I was like ehhhh.. hahahaha So basically i was alreadi SICK on sun alreadi, and i did nt bother much.. And i still i went to my cousin hse for Kimchi soup wif rice and play Wii and of coz accompany n play wif my dear COCO too..

Yest is 1st day of sch but i'm too sick to go sch so i rest at hm instead.. Yest was 1st match of IVP n we won SIM.. 2 more games to go !!

27 more days to her b'day.. Tis yr i did not plan or do anything for her as i'm nt suppose and being told not to get anything for her... As during last yr,that will be the last present i will be giving her.. No more planning or savin for 1st feb anymore.. Christmas wishes no reply, New year 2010 no reply, so will i get any reply for 1st feb b'day wish ? Will i receive any message that tellin me: This will be the last b'day wishes and we shall not wish each other anymore.. I'm soo afriad that i might receive tis sms 1 day ...

对她我终究说不出‘恨’这个字... 无论我有多伤心 多难过，我就是没办法说我恨她.. 别说恨，我连怪都没怪过她.. 我反而会想现在她过的好吗 ？幸福吗，快乐吗？

不能握的手 从此匿名的朋友... 其实我的执著 依然执著..