1 years

I had been bloggin here for 1 year alreadi.. Time passes like soo fast ! I read this on someone blog and i totally agree wif it : in relationship, is nt the breakin part that hurt u but it the after effect of missing special someone in yr life that make it really unbearable.. Don't u guys agree to it as well ?

爱不再重要，坚强的安慰自己我会更好 。。

30/12/09

To all my fren: I noe u guys are worried abt me, u guys noe dat i'm nt happy at all and i'm still sad over some issue.. U guys dun wanna ask me abt dat as u guys are afraid that I might get even more sad n emo.. I noe u guys cared abt me and hope that i could be more happier each days.. I'm sorry to let u guys down, i'm nt truly happy.. I pretend n act as if i'm happy or gettin happier each days.. But when i'm out wif u guys durin those gatherin n outing, i do really enjoy myself but is just those time when i'm alone dat the feelin is diff.. Just like yest, i realli enjoy myself at de steamboat session wif ah ju, ah oon n minhui :)

Ever since that day, I noe my blog post had been very emo n sad.. Maybe some of u will blame her for dat, but pls dun blame her coz it's nt her fault.. It myself, it me dat could not let it go or face it.. Ernica once told me: Maybe u wil haf to wait for de next person to come into ur life dan u'll be able to forget her.. Maybe ernica is right abt tis, but it hard as well as i dun think i'll open up to others so easily again ...

吃不能吃，睡不能睡，没有了你 好想全都不对，我都学不会 把爱敷衍。。笑不能笑 哭不敢哭 人不像人， 朋友都说这不过失恋 但我连呼吸都胆怯。。能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了，我痛到快死了 却无法把你忘了。。也许我只是多余的。。

受了伤却不投降 相信付出会有代价（代价竟是一句傻瓜）

Merry X'mas

Merry Christmas to you, her n everyone ! Thing is still as usual, nt much changes.. Busy wif thing almost everyday.. Maybe i just dun like de feelin of being so free as i might feel empty..

既然我不能坦然地面对，那我只好避开，躲开，逃避或假装下去... 本来以为自己能够放下，认为是时候了，但事实是我依然还是做不到...

The fact is, after so many thing happen.. I dun hate her, i dun blame her at all.. I am just frustrated wif the thing happening.. I just dun like de thing that is happening.. I dun understand y she have to say all those thing at that point of time ? It's stil hurt and it's still bothering me.. But I chose to keep eveything as i do not wish to talk abt it anymore.. I dun wan to speak or talk anything abt her, i choose to avoid n hide.. That de onli way to make me feel better, I guess soo ...

呼吸刺痛着心跳，你 要我怎么笑 ？

21/12/09

今天莫名其妙的回想起以前的事，想起那时候第一次我们牵手的事候。。那感觉很特别很奇妙，是我从来都没有过的。。我也很想知道那时候她到底有什么感受，她心里在想什么 ？就在那瞬间我们就这样的牵起了彼此的手，就这样走着。。那是我们第一次一起出门。。这一切都好像一场梦，我好希望我永远都不要醒来，就永远的在那美好的梦里。。也许我真的还放不过我自己吧。。

如果忘记一个人要好几年，那爱的后坐力真的好玄， 时间也慢慢的告诉我 那是没有期限的。。我虽然说了再见，但我依然活在从前。。不是说好了吗，我们还会是好朋友？ 这么现在好像都变了，不一样了。。说好了不哭了，眼泪也不准滴下，但眼泪还是滴下了。。

累了，该睡了。。拜，晚安了。。

12/12/09

Happie 21st B'day Cashier !! Gonna meet up wif her when she is back from her HK TRIP ! Miss her alot alot :) So glad that we would be able to meet up :) Actually i gt alot of thing in my mind to type here but out of sudden i dunnoe hw shld i start ?

And Mum bought me 1 mickey from HK disneyland shop :) it soo cute n i will go US disneyland to get a much more bigger wan (if everything go smoothly for de US trip)

永远没有勇气面对的问题，问题就这样 一直一直一直盘旋在天空... 于是，天灰了，也哭了.. 如果你问我疼吗 ？ 即时痛到心里了，我还是用最残酷的方式在安慰自己.. 就这样了吧，晚安 !

倒带

我在幸福的门外 却一直都进不来 你累计给的伤害 我是真的很难释懐.. 过去甜蜜在倒带 只是感觉已经不再了 ..

I had not been listenin to 倒带 for quite sometime, as whenever i hear this songs, it remind me of her again.. When we 1st know each other, we listen to this songs together when i was accompany her at NS to help her wif her work stuff.. Yest my sis ask abt her, i did not really wan to talk much abt dat.. My reply was very short like: hmm ya, take le, i dunnoe, how would i noe all this..

At the moment, i just wanna focus on my sch stuff my DOAL course thingy.. Not any other stuff :) But if i realli get choosen for the overseas attachment, i hope i can meet up wif her b4 i leave, juz a simple lunch or dinner as a fren..(:

我决定走掉 任眼泪狂飙 ..

8/12/09

Decide to give lesson skip tml as i'm dead tired n i nid my sleep !! I nid at least 8 to 10 hrs of slp, seriously !!

Today feel freakin unhappy wif some strangers, seriously what wrong wif me wearin that shirt uh ! Look at my shirt like as if dere is ghost or wadeva on my shirt !! What wrong wif de wordin on my tees uh, it just stated: NO MAN WORTH YOUR TEARS, THE ONE WHO DO, WON'T MAKE YOU CRY !! It just a t-shirt that all, is the wordin so matters to u guys, or u guys feel gulity abt dat uh !! Assholes, so wad wif me wearin dat shirt ? N the reason i buy that shirt is coz of the wordin, i like the sentence ! Specially bought it to let all my "GIRL"fren see n noe abt this n let them noe hw sucky n assholes is those MAN !! N if u happen to noe, this shirt is from NUM (New urban Male), Soo if a male shop is sellin this shirt that means even GUYS do agree to it !!! So juz live it, IDIOTS!! Next time if i wear that shirt out n fuckin u ppl gif me that kind of face, I will fuckin ask u guys: what wrong wif my damn shirt n hw can i help U idiots !

也许我不知道 你那儿最好 也许我不知道 你真的那么好 让我情牵忘也忘不了.. 哪我的思恋你又明了多少呢 ？我真的不想黑暗了，你知道吗 ？我不想黑暗了，我想在阳光地下，那你还愿意为我笑一个吗？

我不黑暗了，但也许我変沉了..

3/12/09

First post for the month of dec.. I seriously need alot of rest, almost everyday i overslept n could not wake up on time, every mornin for me = RUSH ! School,work and netball is killin me seriously.. School is de most tiring part as i wil be in class n outdoor as well, but i love every tue lesson as it is water based lesson and it is KAYAKING time !!! I love kayakin and tis is my fav new sports, even though after lesson i wil be dead tired but i enjoy it :) And i just cut n trim my hair, feel soo much better after trimin it :) I dunnoe whether is it a gd or bad news, anyway i'm selected for overseas IIP (overseas attachment) n if i'm realli gg i will be away from sg for i guess at least 2 to 3 months or maybe more than dat.. But thing are nt confirm yet as next wed i'm gg for interview..

The pressie had be left on my chair for quite sometime or i shld sae it had been dere ever since i gt it and i did nt touch it at all.. It is still nicely packed n placed in the plastic bag itself, everyday i had been seein it but i did nt even touch it at all.. Last present from her n i choose to do it tis way.. U may think that what is wrong with me ? I also dunnoe y too, maybe 1 fine day i will choose to do smth to it or maybe it will be dere till dunnoe when..

爱得很深，所以心会很痛 记忆还在我心中翻滚.. 是不是每一个人都像我一样笨呢 ？我也忘了这是第几次，一见你我就无法坚持.. 爱也让人失去了理智 心痛真的比快乐更真实吗 ？

反正到最后还是要面对这些，因为这些情绪只有自己知道.. 我累了，为什么累？ 是因为隐藏了太多太多了.. 最后我已经遗失的东西和我一直在寻找的原来就是我，对就是我自己.. 不满足的不是我的生活，不是我的家庭，更不是我的友情，而是我最内心的灵魂 ..

黑或白都找不到个绝对，全都是灰 ..

30/11/09

Today marks de end of November 2009 .. Nov is a gd month for me and also a sad n emo month as well.. For the gd part is S.H.E is in town durin nov and also i had alot of fun n realli enjoy myself at my own 21st b'day party ! For de sad part, i guess i do not have to elaborate much abt it.. Tml is de 1st day of dec, hopefully it will be a gd month :)

Anyway yest went up wif Aj bro,jyc and fangan :) It was a nice outing and i love and enjoy gg out with them.. Next outing will be Ichiban Sushi hee :D

既然爱无法均分，那以后就留给你们吧... 容忍的人其实并不笨, 只是宁可对自己残忍.. 到底要我怎么样，到底又希望我能怎么样呢？

我应该分的够狠 你才有借口转身... (我是好人，也是个坏人)

28/11/09

Dang is trying hard not to give herself any hope anymore.. More hope given, more hurts & pain is applied .. The story will be continued..


也许用伤害结束爱才更动人吧 ？你是好人，也是个坏人..

Heal ?

Will it heal ? Completely heal ? I dunnoe ... The sadness is stil dere, nt completely n nt gone yet... Almost everyone dat see me ask me to cheer up as they sae i do look sad ..

3 years back, someone told me dat she is nt tat type of girls that i''ll like n i did nt realli think much abt dat coz at tat point of time, i seriously like her alot.. Maybe they're right from de start... To me nw everything is juz like a dream, it seems like i have it but in de end i dun.. It's a beautful dream dat i wish i'll nv wake up from dere.. No more happiness or happy moment left, it's all gone..

I noe eventually one fine day it will heal, slowly heal.. Morning when i was awake my pillow was wet, my tears still roll down before i slept... It was realli a cold mornin when i was gg to work, everywhere seems soo quiet.. I close my eyes n sleep on de bus to work, i was really tired.. I did nt give my best at work 2day, i haf no mood but stil i tried to give my best.. Thank Eunice for listenin to wad i have to say n also makin me laugh as well.. Thank Ju n Oon for listenin to me as well..

Silly dang is forever soo silly n foolish.. Silly dang wan to sleep nw, eye closing soon.. gd night !

On and on the pain goes on and I just dunnoe hw to cope ?

21/11/09

I will not be the orginial me tis few days, maybe nt de Dang u guys noe.. I wil nt be soo hyper tis few days.. I'm nt good at all, i'm all mess up again.. I am so foolish n stubborn.. My tears roll down n i can't control, i noe i should not be like tis again.. But i seriously cannot control it, i feel very worse nw.. I dunnoe hw to hide anymore, tears juz keep rolling down.. I'm sorry friends, if i let u guys worried abt me..

你应该很幸福和快乐吧 ？ You said that I should not always just think for others, i should also think for myself... I seriously dunnoe hw am i gg to work tml ? Maybe i wil nt be similing as much, and i will nt be in a gd state to serve guest too..

Physically n Mentally tired.. I'm tired, bye

:(

This will be an Emo post once again .. Receive an sms from her askin whether am i free to meet tml ? It seem that i gt to be happy but I am nt.. As I'm workin tml n have meetin after work so i told her no.. But she sae meet after my meetin juz for awhile as she wil nt be free from tml onwards.. So i gt no choice but to meet.. This is nt wad i want, but i have no choice n can't choose at all ..

This may be the last time we gonna meet, i dunnoe y but i just gt tis feeling.. Thing aren't as well as last time anymore, i knew it all along but i thought it would nt be so worse like nw.. Maybe this seems like an cycle, I think n think n think and i try n try n try & in de end I fail.. Well, I'm stubborn, always stubborn.. This is de onli place for me to be emo as FB my sis, cousin all are in, i can't realli do much thing dere.. I guess & belief nt much ppl noe this blog so juz let me be emo here..

Juz nw was talkin to Ju online, i told her almost everything abt it.. She told me it take time, so i should lead my own life and slowly forget abt her.. I had been tryin to do so but everytime i walk pass 1 area or juz see something i think of her.. I pass by bukit batok, bukit gombak i think of her, i walk pass tis particular shop i think of her, i use my mickey cup it remind me of her again.. IF i gonna sae i dun feel anything when she told me she can't make it for my party on 7th nov, i am obiviously lying to u.. All along i dun realli like to have b'day celebration but as tis time is my 21st and i would like to use tis opportunity to haf a party so that could invite her and so call spend or celebrate my b'day wif her but in de end ...

就算叙述了在多的疲累和压力及情绪都显的太多余。。 这些都在告诉我，现在的我看起来是多么的脆弱。。 不知道的还以为又发生了什么事，知道的想说这事情应该还会在发生。。从头到尾最清楚的唯一证人，被问起时，只剩微笑或沉默。。振作吧，好吗？

一个人安静的..

I Dunnoe y i like tis pic alot.. It seems very special :) For me i feel that the drawin seems to be cryin n it is all alone by itself ..

That all for 2night.. Maybe more emo post to be up soon.. Byee n gd night to u n her :)

轻微着痛着，轻微地舍不得。。

16/11/09

Recently thing had been the same.. Still i'm soon tired esp mon after water-based lesson and then training again.. I am like soo dead tired de following day.. But anyway lesson and sch had been okay and maybe kind of fun as well..

And i alreadi gt myself an new wallet from NUM :) Quite happy with the wallet.. B'day is the same nth much, nth much for me to think abt as well.. everything stay de same..

就算面無表情還是會有痛覺的不是嗎? 但這些東西根本沒人懂.. 我太累了，但這樣的累也糟到拋棄.. 看得太透徹了，這更殘忍.. 那些關於我的，也已經在也不關我的事情了..
我早就知道也改變不了甚麼，所以不想再懷抱希望讓自己受傷.. 反正不管怎麼難過怎麼開心一天都會過去.. 反正到最後結果都已經成形了，那就這樣吧...

That all for today.. Feel kind of tired n i gonna play my cookin mama 3 nw :) Gd night to u n her :)

我以为说忘记就忘记，多么洒脱容易

At last

Actually i'm quite lazy to blog n post but i think i shld come here n post smth.. Okay anyway my dear Laopo S.H.E had alreadi left sg like 4 days ago haaa.. Love them to de max haa.. anyway foto are upload at FB, too many foto for me post le.. I shall just post some of it and ella draw me an heart hahahah :D


B'day celebration last sat was great :) All my fren,buddies, relative is dere to celebrate wif me.. Julin n Jiemin came, they suprise me again and i belief everything they sae again!! Everytime kanna bluff by them de ehhh haa.. N AJ bro manage to came early, i was like ehh hw cum she is dere at 6 plus coz b4 that she told me she gt to work.. But it great to see all of them are there :) Receive lots of present as well, pic are up at FB as well :)

2 more days and it will be de actual day of my b'day.. Wishes will be the same again, I realli hope from 3 years back till nw the wishes did came true :) It's a very simple wishes that i had, hopefully it did came true everytime i wish it :) Soo that shld all for today, gd night to u n her :)

你送的礼物 在此刻好体贴陪我回忆 把过往走一遍

Laopo !!!

The pic show n sae everything !! They're in town :)) Super happy to see them, tml is another day for me to see them :)) Byee and will upload more pic when i'm freeeee

Gd night to u n her :D

6/11/09

Today i give sch a skipped !! Decide not to go to sch for lesson 2day, soo boring and also my dear laopo S.H.E is in town alreadi woolalala.. Later on meetin bestie pearline to go ION to see them as ltr 4pm they havin an press conference for de OSIM product :)) And tml will be at causeway for the auto-session for the book itself hee..

Tml night will also be an happy events for me ? I guess shld be ba haa coz it my 21st b'day party ... Everything shld be fine tml i guess haaa.. Yest went n get the decoration stuff at bugis and also ordered my balloons !! GREEN, PURPLE, YELLOW :))

There is a period of time whenever i hear my ipod or ppl playing 触电, i will press next for my ipod if nt i will just plug my ear pieces and listen to my own songs.. It nt tat i dun like tis songs but whenever i listen to that songs it make me think back of those memories like what de lyrics say: 明明是昨天的事情 怎么今天我还在经历 一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地。。The reason i wanna meet u is to sit down, chit-chat and have dinner with u, the rest is not important at all to me.. 我不需要什么生日礼物，那对我来说一点也不重要，我只想跟你坐下来好好的跟你吃一顿饭。。 就这么简单可以吗 ？

當我開始發現做了這麼多事情之後並不是為了我自己，而是為了抵抗或是掩蓋某些不堪的爆發而轉移再轉移，逃的這麼遠現在卻甚麼也看不見了。。有人負責傷害，就一定会有人負責受傷.. 那負責受傷的就是要負責讓自己面對 讓自己哭 讓自己痊癒 讓自己好過。。这一点也不好过。。

That shld all for 2day, gonna get ready to go out n pack my stuff for tml as well.. Byee & hope u n her have a gd day ahead :)

终于沉默代替我们 就像风吹来云飘走了

4/11/09

I gt nth to blog anyway but juz feel like cumin here to type smth.. And to share dat i gt my 1st b'day pressie from Celine cousin's & Hubby, Pauline Cousin, Auntie, Sis n her BF.. It a canon camera that i wanted and my b'day cake on my party tis sat :)

Mon went to NUH to visit my 1st aunt, glad to see dat she is much more better and hopefully she can be discharged soon.. N my younger cousin Mr Anthony get into an bike accident, went n see him too.. Luckly he was okay and nth much serious.. He gt abrasion, 1 open wound on his leg and he fractured his right arms.. Hopefully after this accident, he will be more obedient n listen to my 2nd uncle n auntie..

無法停止的好好沈澱所有思緒，喘不過氣後還是不停的抑制.. 多令人無奈的結果，在我身旁的平靜已經不真實了，我不想再靠近了。。。就先安全的待在這吧，繼續等待。。


That all for today, kind of tired and feel soo sleepy nw.. Tml gt trainin hais, dun realli feel like gg coz i feel very tired :( Byee n gd night to u n her :)

时间的伤 翻云覆雨了什么从我手中 夺走了什么

Woo

Happie B'day Selina 任家宣

Today is dear selina princess B'day !! Happie happie B'day to u.. Can't wait for next week to see them, SELINA, HEBE, ELLA :)

De day is approaching soon, n receive new from my frens that they might not be able to make it for my b'day.. Well, that basically hw thing will turn out, nt within our control too.. Just came back from movie wif vincent,shihui,denyse,leon n mason.. Watch Michael Jackson this is it !! It nice and i like it heee :) For sure i wil play his music durin my party Wooooo :D

That shld be all for 2day, i nid my rest and tml is work time again.. Gd night to u n her :)

越相互关心著 越加速疏远了

坦白 ?

Mum & dad wil nt hm for the next 2 days as they went on cruise alreadi.. People are askin me what do i want for my b'day ? And they even ask me to list out my wishlist in my blog.. BAsically de thing that i wanted are kind of expensive, frankly speaking but i can gif some advice on what to get for me.. Maybe can get adidas, nike, NUM,Top Man voucher as i could get thing from there.. Basically the thing that i want is FCUK watch, Casio Watch, Bag from STAGE, a brand new wallet, Fred Perry and Lacoste Polor T.. At de moment tis are de thing that i wanted to get and of coz there are still other thing that i wanted but i would prefer receiving de voucher from others and get de items myself as I would want to try n see whether do i suit those thing that i wanted haaa.. (:

So this are de thing that I would wan or prefer, DUN say i nv state wad i wan le ah ! hahahahaha.. This are my wish-lists but nt my B'day wish, my b'day wishes are always de same ever since 3 years back.. I'm nt sure whether my wish had come true ma ? Hopefully every year my wish had come true :)

回想起以前的事，我发现我真的很喜欢她，也愿意为了她做任何一件事。。直到现在我还是喜欢她。。對自己坦白　愛狠狠的還在 找朋友陪伴　都抵不過另一半。。或许到现在我真的还没醒吧。。

That all for 2night.. Gonna get some sleep soon.. Gd night to u n her :)

時間開始慫恿 勸深愛的人放棄

27/10/09

Yest went out wif ah ju & ah oon to celebrate ah oon belated B'day !! Went Holland V for dinner and ice-cream :) Glad dat ah oon did enjoy herself and i stil wating for her 1000 words post at her blog regarding what we did yest hahahaha..

AND guess wad ? S.H.E is cumin to sg next month !! Hurray they are cumin but on de day i haf my b'day party they are havin their books auto-graph session at causeway point but luckly it is held at 2pm so I can still go and will able to make it for my b'day party hahahaa.. How could I miss out any S.H.E event when they are in sg ? Wahahaha.. I would try out all ways to go n see them even though i haf thing on haaa .. :D

Anyway schools and everything are still ok, everything is doing well but i'm getting more tanned !! Next mon is kayaking lesson, lookin forward to it hee :) I had juz cut my hair n highlighted as well.. Quite happie wif the hair color and all thank to my hair-stylist Kim :) I like elva new album 钻石糖 songs, almost everyday my ipod is playin her songs .. I think i'll go get her album haa ..That shld be all for 2day.. Byee n gd night to u n her :)

開始倒數 開始忘記

倒数 ?

我不知道我什么时候会醒来，可能我到现在都没醒来过，只是我现在还在梦里面觉得我是醒着的，觉得我可以放下...

眼淚忽然奪眶而出 快要不能自己

22/10/09

Lesson are ok recently and I'm able to sleep alittle bit longer due to my lesson start late haaa.. Anyway tml after sch i gonna head down to Ncore n get OS HERO巨型太空閃電Logo T but I stil nt sure whether which color to get ? Yellow or silver ??

Anyway that shld be all, nth much to blog or sae anyway.. Byee, gd night to u n her :)

越害怕傷害我 我感覺越難受

20/10/09

Recently i had been very tired again :( Seriously nt enough slp.. Today went straight hm after sch, when i reach hm i lie down on my sofa n i fall slp till 8 plus near 9pm.. I realise i haven had my dinner yet, quickly head down to get some food for dinner.. I think when i was sleepin or restin on de sofa, i hear my dad askin my mum hw come i'm sleepin at tis time and i look soo tired recently ? My mum told my dad that for the past few days, i had competition and de next day i gt to wake up early for sch or work, tat y i'm soo tired.. I totally agreed to what my mum said hahahaa..

I'm soo tempted and soo lookin forward for S.H.E is the one world our concert !! Can they come soon soon PLS !! Saw those pic that they have their concert in HK and read the article for their concert i was like Ahhhhh I wan to watch de concert too :( Stil waitin for de concert in sg..

It confirm that she will nt be cumin for my b'day party as she gt thing on or maybe there is some reason behind it that i guess myself.. But that okay as she said that she will meet up wif me durin nov :) 我只是讓自己縮再牆角，緊閉雙眼等著這一切停止，然而我面無表情 其實我都知道這不是一個好的結果不是嗎? 一切疼痛揮舞著未來，沸騰後冷卻的等待我明白。。。

Well that shld be all for today, quite a long post of update.. Tml wil be last match for POLITE, let go RP netballer ! Fight all de way :) Yawnnn, I'm sleepy sleepy n tired.. Gd night to u n her :)

傷人的真相　無法隱藏 也無法埋葬

17/10/09

Recently tis few days did not have de time to blog 1 long post, even nw i'm juz using some of time to blog b4 i slp as tml is working again.. My scheldue for tis few weeks is damn busy.. For mon is water based lesson n after lesson i havin match, tue is sports business and after sch i went n do my invitation card thingy, wed lesson at bukit timah and after that i rush down to TP for match, thur went bukit timah again but luckly night time nth on, Fri CCM. whole day at ALC and after that head for match.. LAstly today n tml is work again :( Omg i gonna die soon, i nid more rest pls ..

Juz nw meet up wif vincent darling.. Nice meetup coz long time nv see him and bth of us miss each other too hahaha.. He treat me dinner at bongo and i treat him drinks at STARBUCKS.. We chat abt lots of thing, soo shiok hahaha.. Haven been chattin wif him like 2day for quite sometime alreadi :) Hopefully able to meet up wif him more but nt next week as he cannot book out haaa ..

Thank for the wishes, I will play well n play hard :) Even though u sae i no nid the luck coz i gt de skills but i still nid ur gd luck hee :D

GIF ME A BREAK !

That all for today.. Soo tired n tml is EIC, Omg faints.. Hopefully all my ent staff come to work tml.. Yawnnnnn, gd night to u n her :)

我会释怀让时间把一切都冲淡

Happie B'Day

Happie B'day to Ah Oon !!

Tis post is specially posted for dear ah oon de trend setter :) Happie 19th b'day n may all ur wishes come true.. So sorry could nt celebrate ur b'day wif u on time, but we wil meet up soon k :) Short post 2night, will post again when i'm free.. Gd night to u n her :)

Mixture feeling

Just came back from match like 1 hrs ago.. Today is de 1st match, we won :) today was againist NP, at 1st we will nt doing so well but after that we fight all de way and we won.. Play 2 quarters 2day, was quite happy wif my performance but stil nid tp work hard.. All of us wanted tis game badly, and we did it.. 4 more match to go.. Let go TEAM RP Netballer :)

I was very happy when we won, all of us hug each other.. But when after match and i was changing, i did nt feel gd at all.. I wanted to share my happiness wif her but i dunnoe hw to and i'm scared. I'm freakin scared, i dunnoe hw she will feel when i sms her.. I stil can do it 3 years, 2 & 1 years ago but nt nw anymore.. I share my happiness wif Nina n shihui, I want share it wif everyone but i dunnoe hw can i share it wif her.. :(

道行く人をぼんやり見ていた 目覚めたらすべてが夢であってよそしてまたふざけて□ ( I listlessly watched people walk by, Let this all be a dream when I open my eyes and make fun of me again)

That shld be all for today.. Juz finish my RJ and maybe i'll browse thru my pre-readin for sports business.. I shld be sleeping soon.. Gd night to u n her :)

泪在眼里打转 爱以变成黑白

8/10/09

Recently had been a busy week for me, so many thing to do n settle.. B'day party thing is the most hassle thing nw, as I could not get a venue on 7th nov but i had alreadi bk the venue on 8th nov(sun).. I shld be glad that i got the area but my mum prefer it to be on sat so right nw my sis n cousin is helping to see whether am i able to get other venue on 7th nov .. WISH ME GOOD LUCK PLS !!!

I thought that I had alreadi put everything aside and move on to a new chapter but yest i realise i did not managed to do that.. Yest when i was in sch during 2 or 3 plus she online, i was suprised that she online.. I click on her, even though i did nt have the intention to chat wif her but i still click on her.. I Dunnoe y i did that ? When i click on her and saw her DP, the feeling is back.. I Dunnoe hw to describle that feeling but me myself can feel that tis feeling is soo familar and it just like last time again.. Afterall, she still mean alot to me and she is still very special to me..

Sat will be having dinner at Jumbo to celebrate sis B'day !! Gonna get her some present if not she wil nag that i did not get her anything for her b'day and she gt to spend $ on my 21st b'day hahaha.. Anyway gt some fotos for the halloween night.. :)

That shld be all for 2day, gt to head for some sports courses for netball :) Byee and hope u n her wil have a gd day ahead .. :)

对你好都没有用 要怎样让你感动 ?

Super Enjoyed !!

Yest night was a super great night :) I realli enjoy myself to de max, love gg out 1 big group esp wif zoo peeps coz we're a bunch of fun n crazy ppl.. Yest de seniors join us as well, n we had alot of fun disturbin the ghosts and takin pic wif them hahaha.. :)

Ah bao was de most funniest wan among us.. The ghosts wanted to scare us, some manage to did it and some not but de most funny part is after they scare us, ah bao 1st reaction or 1st sentence is : take photo take photo ! We was like laughin non-stop and i think those ghosts is thinkin wah tis grp of ppl crazy uh .. Every ghost that appear we would sae take photo take photo in a very excited way hahaha..

I enjoy my trip yest although it was nt as scary as last year wan but de company was GREAT :) Picture shall sae everything :D

Zoo Peeps :)

Tml wil be headin back to sch alreadi, another sem to go.. Hopefully everything wil be gd :) That shld be all for today.. Byee, n hope dat u n her wil have a gd day :)


为什么爱人的权利注定就要一辈子的隐藏

掉了 ?

Today is 29sept and it is ah leong b'day !! Happie 21st ah leong, May all ur wishes come true and take care :)

I'm soo lookin forward to tis sat as i'm gg to night safari halloween night wif de zoo peeps :) It gonna be fun fun but too bad julia n vincent could nt join us.. Nvm we shall go again coz it for the whole mth of OCT :) Recently busy wif my invitation card thingy, alreadi bought all de materials needed and nw it designing time.. Gonna start doin tml.. And i'm stil waitin for my fever gd student tee, hopefully there wil be restock Pls pls pls :)

黑色笑靥掉了 雪白眼泪掉了 该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了 瞳孔没有颜色 故事情节掉了　主角对白掉了 该属于剧中的对角戏也掉了。。 回忆是最可怕的敌人，我永远都没办法胜过它。。

That all for today.. Gd night to u n her then :)

想念不能承认　偷偷擦去泪痕

若無其事 ?

我可否若無其事的走向人群，我能否若無其事的正常? 我無法若無其事，無法。。太多的淚水 寫滿了悲傷和愚昧。。

晚安了，拜拜。。 就这样了

我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己

22/9/09

Tired, tired, tired is all i can sae after 4 days straight of work.. And i'm workin on a long weekends ! But luckly everything stil can manage if nt u can see me takin MC le hahaha.. Tml to sat wil be OFF :) Shiok ah hahaha.. Sat wil be gg shoppin wif mason n julia in de afternoon dan night time wil be dinner wif mason n de rest of zoo peeps :)

當我替這世界找完藉口，結果卻仍舊令人沮喪 我就不想再费任何的力气了。。虽然我面無表情，對很多事情都已經無法再激動看待，但此時我仍失望透頂。。抱緊怕愛會掙扎 放開又怕愛會心慌 那我该怎么做呢？The worse thing is caring about someone, wondering how she is and what she is up to when the truth is she've stopped wondering about you a long time ago... 原来她已不在意所有的所有了。。

已累了..

Byeee that all.. Gd night to u n her and haf a gd rest everyone :) 晚安吧!

就算不能够再靠近同样的天空下总会有你 ...

19/09/09

Today was a day out wif Ju and Oon for picnic at Marina Barrage !! The weather was nt soo gd but we stil manage to picnic and took quite alot of fotos, waitin for Ju to upload as she gt lots of pic to upload nw haaa.. I love gg out wif them as it's soo fun and we can chat abt lots of thing as well.. I go off 1st as nid to attend trainin in de evening :( Sorry abt dat Ju & Oon, sorry that i gt to leave early.. Next time, i'll leave my whole day for u all k hee :D

Yest after work receive a sms from her, soo suprising uh .. I was kinda suprise too when i saw de sms.. She told me dat if hse come to my party, it'll be weird coz she dunnoe anyone there.. I was like ermmm dere's afew ppl dat i invite dat she noe as well.. She replied: But i nt close wif them.. I told her if she's cumin, i will acc her throughout the party n she'll nt be alone :) Yest night b4 i was gg to sleep, i was thinking abt the whole thing.. I was wondering am i like forcin her to come or wad ? I feel like smsin her n tell her if u realli scared dat u feel weird, it okay for me if u dun make it :) In de end i nv sms her tis, coz i noe i wil regret coz i realli hope n want her to come but i dun wanna force her or ... Today told ju & oon abt dat, Ju sae it kind of obivious dat she dun wanna come or could not come le.. Ju told me to sms her dat if she is realli cumin she can bring along a gal-fren to acc her :) I guess i wil tell her dat too..

我還沒忘掉的東西，還沒理由忘記，而殘留的一切不管現在以後都會很安靜。。習慣性的把很多心情都像裝袋一樣的隱藏起來，什么都不想让别人知道或发现。。祝我開心，但我要你更開心 可以吗？So many words for the broken heart, It's hard to see in a crimson love and it's so hard to breathe ...

只想在自己的世界里。。

Byee that all for 2day.. Tml is work again and it will be a 4 days straight work .. Gd night to u n her :) 祝妳開心。妳一定要好嗎 ?

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